Be A Master

More jobs to pick up

2011-11-23T19:49:00.001+08:00

Out of the blue moon, the guy scheduled the 1:1 with me andI know this is definitely not a good news to me, more jobs to pick up and morethings to do, at the same time, pay will remain thesame for a long while. Dealing with a girl that like to complain is a pain, shekeep complaining that she is overloaded, the fact is everyone overload, so whatyou like to complain about?

Change a thought that we should be blessed for having jobsand steady income every months, it may be insufficient due to lifestyle. Peoplewith more income tend to admire luxury lifestyles, unless you are really strongwith passive income, or working for money cant really get you into next level.The more income you make, the poorer you are…cause you spend more andimpulsively.

Years ago, when my salary less than 2k, I still could afforda car because the car was my focus, and my all income almost 40% dump into carexpenses – petrol, maintenances, insurance, tyres, loan installment and etc.

Now, even the salary is higher than before, I need to think twice to change anew car, because the car is no longer my focus, I need to concentrate to alarger commitment in life – marriage. The loan installment and maintenance hasno end dates, as long as the contract is on, you will need to pay it forever,until the day you wanted to breach the contract that is costly as thecompensation is huge.

I get more jobs just because I am more familiar withproducts than others, I used to take care some of the products supply anddemand because I am on site, now they make it my responsibility for all. I donot know whether I can handle it well, but I have told them that I am handling3 product lines now, so you cant expected my service level as good as beforebecause I cant now simply concentrate on 1 issue at a time. If I screw up, thenyou have to excuse me. I wear underwear inside the pant but not outside, if thecompany is looking for a super employee, I would say I am not the one, get moreheadcounts or get somebody else.

Sick for 5 days…fever family reunion…

2011-10-01T20:23:00.000+08:00

All the siblings came together to visit me, but I never feel touch and never welcome them again for 2nd visit, I have not on MC for long while and I got 3 days MC in the past 2 weeks that broken my personal record. I am still ill and feel a bit reluctant to work further here, at this hour, the best thing is to go home and sleep...I miss my bed.

After a year of last business travel, now comes again… initially I thought there will be no more, but thanks to the CM proposal to has the business review meeting at corporate office, so now we have another chances to fly again, and the next trip will never in hope again.

Maybe I am a bit sensitive or maybe this is the truth, I do not know and I hope someone tell me the truth. I am a super minority now, ladies in the office sometimes refused to join me for lunch, so con-incident that they have plan when I asked them, or they wanted to have secret talk, that’s why a guy is not welcomed? I am not a loud speaker, but willing to share, as we working together, sometimes sharing is necessary, but now they just make me quiet than before which I am not that type of people.

Until now I still not understand that why my friend wanted the job with manager title, she claimed it is easier for career advancement, while I think the manager title is actually a burden to me, until now, even I wanted to go further from where I am now, I also feel quite hard to get a better offer. Maybe I will feel different next year when I start to busy with my marriage. Busier to handle more thing and less time to think negatively and the time will move faster.

I think is time to move on with current situation, reluctant to move on is a dangerous sign, while everyone is making good progress, you still stand at current place, make yourself the lowest performer in the department; the next wave of work force management, I will have strong chance to get the big envelope which ask you to leave.

I am focus on the teaching now, and will start to teach by next year…even I do not know what to do now, but I hope that once I start that career, it will make my life a huge different. I felt myself being trapped in the unknown future and I really hope to escape from here, give me a clear direction!! I am still a bit blurring in the case, sick for 5 days… I just want to continue sleep for a while, anti social for a while…

changes

2011-09-20T17:42:00.003+08:00

Recently I have encountered many changes, personally, professionally or even family…

We heard a lot that…changes are good…when only thing stuck. If for thing that is going well, changes may not be good. The top management keep emphasize that the major reorg affected everyone and hardly there is no one maintain as it is, but I spent 7 years to meet with a best boss so far, working with him for only a year..Then he was transferred to other department and I was transferred to other reporting manager, how is new boss working style… I have no ideas. So, I feel uncertain about the future, moving blindly.

If I am with the old boss now, I will ask for more workloads, I am too effective or I am under load? most of the managers would think we are under load rather than effective. Last few days, I had strong impulsive to look for new jobs, but at current job market, it is hard to find an good offer, so, better wait till next year, then start to plan for next move. s

Stay for better career opportunity or better times slot to do part time, we may not know. So, changes in life are necessary, it’s just a matter of how long we need to adapt to the changes. I may need longer times to changes because I am changing from best to unknown…

After years of having housemaid and she is going back at last, stay with us for 6 years like a family member. Good to have someone to do the entire home works for us – cleaning and washing, cooking is never a piece of her expertise. Cook for herself is her matter, cook for the family, she lacks of that capability. My mum is still the best cook and no one can compare with her…at least in my family. So, from now on, I need to handle the washing and cleaning on my own and I should make my girlfriend do the same. For last 2 years, she visited my house and stay like a guest, now should make her like family member, start to clean and wash.

At last, after years of picky and choosy, I have decided she is the one I will settle down with, she may not be the best…not highly educated, not making good income, quite hot tempers ( I am even hotter) and not the prettiest…but I still pick her. People ask me why not keep looking again, I just rejected because one’s desires are hard to satisfy, and we always want the richest and prettiest, even jealous and envy when we see someone can get a pretty girlfriend, but how much effort he need to put in to woo the girl or how much investment need to throw in to maintain the relationship? We will not know. For the effort and investment we willing to put in, we should be happy with the returns. So, no need to reconsider…as long as there is no major fault to cause the relationship failure, why have to find a new one? To restart the searching process, take much more effort than maintain the current one, which you are enjoying the fruits harvested after putting efforts to plant the tree… we are focusing on a tree instead of forest, unless the tree is unfruitful, then you have valid reasons to look for other trees.

Mankind used to live with migrating and hunting, after years of evolution, they settled down at somewhere and start to grow prospers with planting and feeding to ensure the continuous supply of necessity. Same theory applied to the relationship, man or woman looking around and hunt…after sometimes, they settled down…he or she needs to do something to maintain the relationship to ensure the relationship is in good sharp.

fathers' day

2011-06-19T15:38:00.003+08:00

i didn't celebrate father day for years...
he passed away since 2007,
diagnosed with cancer..

at age of 63,
We believe he could still live longer..
unfortunately, he left us earlier than expected.

He never express his love openly,
but he put in action,
He never shown concern,
until we got sicks...
This was Chinese man style,
never been taught to express love verbally,
as he never heard from his parents.

He left with regret,
regret that he never has chance to witness,
witness his beloved youngest son to marry.

Marry means march into another chapter of life,
beginning of new chapter as grown adult,
also end of responsibilities from parents,
Yet to marry,
I am still the child in his eyes,
still an unfinished business for him...

Until now, I am still the child..
hopefully next year father day,
his regret will end.

silly questions

2011-06-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

June is a special occasion whereby I have 2 ex-girlfriends married within this month. One married to a Romanian whom she met in UK and another one married to a Malaysian Chinese.

My friends kept asking me the silly questions, " your ex married at last, how do you feel?"; " did you get invitation from them?" The commitment that I could not give but they got it from a better guy at last, I have no right to voice anything.

In fact, after broke up, I always hope that they could get someone better, if were to answer how do I feel? My answer is I am happy for them as they found the true love at last. If they were invite me to the ceremony, surely I will attend. I got invitation from 1 of them, unfortunately i cant attend as my grandpa passed away last month and I need to skip the invitation.

When a relationship went wrong, the couples took the mutual agreement to end the relationship, no matter it is a peace or hardcore broke up. The impact may take times to heal, but times is always the best medicine.

I told my friend whom thrown me the silly Q " I am not sure if she (my-ex) should thanks me or hate me? cause i left her as she could not let go the ex whom was making her the 3rd party in the abnormal relationship, not sure if the lesson make her stronger to let go the ex and finally found the true love; if make her stronger, then I am the noble guy that lead her to true love, if to hurt her much more, then it was never my intention."

over estimated

2011-06-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

Guys are usually selfish? or should i say people in love are selfish?

when in love with someone, the couple have influence over each other, depend how much they are in love. Usually, the one falling in love deeper has lesser bargaining power, reason being he/she afraid to lose another half; from times to times, they have to give up or give in many things to compromise. Theoretically, girls are easier to fall in love deeply than guys, so the tendency of compromising is higher than guys. Undeniable that there are guys falling in loving deeper than girl.

So, even when the couple broke up after sometimes, girls are usually hurt more serious than the guy, and the influence to the girls are still strong when the relationship turned sour.

However, there are guys used to over estimate themselves that they can still influence or they still have place in their ex-lovers heart, so if they were to show mercy by giving the opportunity to the ex-lovers to come back to them, the ex should be glad and highly appreciated the chances given. ( mostly in dream only)

Dont forget times is moving fast...she could have met someone much better..so, never over estimate yourself after broke up...never think off she could not find someone else other than you. keep your mercy to yourself, cause you need it more than anyone if you have such a thought...poor you.

the moment of

2011-04-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

sometimes..in someplace..someone surely has the moment of disappointed and then become speechless.

EQ is highly needed in this case, sometimes we have no idea disappointment we experienced in that moment turned to negative energy hurting the surrounding people, especially those whom concern and care of us.

pressure in working environment is very common, even housewife also having pressure and how could us always pray and hope for a job which high pay, low workload and less pressure? If someone strike lottery become millionaire overnight, that someone is also having pressure to keep this secret by themselves.

disappointed with something we expect and hope, but didn't get at last; speechless because of feeling down, awful, uncomfortable...cause by disappointment. This is the cycle..cause and effect, doing the right cause and the effect is right as what you wish. Like what a friend told me, she is practising the "The Secret", think positive to attract good energy, even it may take years to realise the goal, but at least it works. I congratulated her for the first good move, hope that she really get what she wanted for.

Being positive doesn't mean you disallow to be disappointed, but it will shorten the cycle you surrounded by that negative energy field. I am a positive thinker and i always believe good thing will happen to allow me to help more people, this is not the main cause for personal agenda, but to the community.

24 hours notice

2011-04-10T16:46:00.003+08:00

Loyalty used to be a good description to an employee whom work in a company for long times. Sadly, loyalty is not a good value in the eyes of employers, no matter how much you have contributed, sacrified for the company, when the day has come when your contribution is no longer needed, they will ask you to leave the company either in the nicer way or just throw you out. nicer way as they compensated according to the years of service in the company; thrown you out is just as simple as a call/email to notify you need not worry anymore for matters in the company, then shut you down to all the access to the company and ask you to leave immediately escorting by a few person - security, HR. So, do what the company paid you for; more workloads, more contribution or even dying for the company benefits do not necessarily make your position more solid than anyone. As long as management think that your service is no longer needed, then you are gone instantly. Whenever there are good opportunity, always give those chances a thorough consideration, even under a good boss now may not secure you when his/her boss wanna fire you, the boss need to secure themselves as well, they will not sacrify themselves for you cause they have families to feed too. Loyalty, think it only when you are tired to hop from one to another.

paper shredder

2011-02-20T17:07:00.003+08:00

constantly, i received various letters from various parties - insurance company, bankers and other organisations. i used to just teared the paper and thrown in dust bin for unwanted papers, but in last 2 years, i started to collect the papers in a box and dispose it once in a while; still teared off those paper with confidential statement, this is not the best way to dispose the papers which unintentionally disclose your personal detail, at least i feel uncomfortable.

things get better when i got a paper shredder as gift from my gf, it has been long while i wish to have shredder to shed those papers, can recycle the papers and at the same time to have information undisclosed, what a perfect way!!

i fall in love with my shredder when i got it..it save me a lot of problems and i have cleared a lot unwanted papers from my room.

important fact that twist your mind

2011-02-18T17:55:00.002+08:00

i guess every driver has the same experience like me, when wanna change the new tires, the mechanic will advise to place the new tires at the front, reasons given were engines is in front, so new tires will enable better control when driving. However, videoclip from Michelin is showing the other facts.

Of course the best way is to change 4 tyres at once, but a tyre cost RM150-200; it wont be easy for working class to poke out big lump sum money to replace 4 tyres at once.

So, next time, pls insist to replace the new tyres at rear first..

where to go?

2011-01-20T21:48:00.002+08:00

i am not sure whether every couple will go through this stage, but I am currently at this stage..whenever wanna go dating, the first or second question to ask is where to go? Penang is a lovely island, but to somebody like me that already stay in this island for > 30 years. I have really no idea where to go when wanna go dating.

if wanna look for foods, i have plenty ideas that what i wanna have for lunch or dinner..but what are the next plan after meals? i need to think again and again..where to go. Often, go cinema to watch movie are my option as I enjoy to watch movies but not drama.

like tonite, we end up dating at starbuck..both of us bring our own laptop, she is watching the drama and I am writing this blog, at least we have something to keep us occupied. I never think that when couple dating, must be eyes to eyes for whole night and have endless topic to share. If this happend, then that couple must be newly in love..cause me too. when newly in love, i have more thing to talk and wanna explore her background more, that's why we can spend couple of hours at least a night and a few hundreds dollar a month on phone calls.

Now, I just want to focus more on my career and more privacy. Ways to go to learn to have someone stay besides me for 24/7.

Maybe I should ask her to share my burden..ask her where to go? let her plan for the date...

real entrepreneur course or just another direct sales tricks?

2011-01-08T15:15:00.002+08:00

one event that posted on FB attracted my attention - " Be Entrepenuer, not a dream", the resume of the speaker are impressive, he gained all sort of best speaker, best motivator in Asia..he is the founder of the so & so foundation, organisation... the best part is the course used to charge RM200, now only RM20. ok, I got into the tricks by signed up for the lesson, then the organiser asked me to pay for RM20 if I didnt turn up at last.

Just wanna be sure of the place..I make a trip to search the venue as the road name sounds familiar to me and I just want to be sure, then I found out that the place is actually a stockist of direct sales..instantly I lost my interest.

I never mean that MLM is not good as entrepreneurship, even "Rich dad, poor dad" also highly recommend that MLM is one good way to start your own careers, if you do not have big money pipeline, the piramid system is helping to generate money by having your downlines to work for you and you get income from their outputs, but it never be my cup of tea.

of course, i have day dream of winning lottery..I setup a foundation from the falling fortunes to fund the charity works..even myself also cant touch the money as what I wish. I just wonders how many lucky person won lottery can use their money wisely? what I heard is mostly the luckiest turned to be nightmare witn broken family, spoiled health and lost souls...

so, whether that event is really the entrepreneur course or just another direct sales tricks..I do not know..cause I wasnt there to explore the contents...we used to tell others do not judge the books by its cover, but this book is not my interest..so I lazy to read it.

larger than life

2010-12-28T10:06:00.003+08:00

Once, blogging was larger than life for me..even during working hours, when I like to share and write, nothing can stop me, even i cant login to blogger.com, somehow i will write in email to save it and then will paste it to my blog at later time.

Last year, when I engaged in master study, too many assignments to write (mostly based on facts), rather than my personal feeling and thinking...I am kind of need to readjust myself to be reality...think of the future direction I need to head to.

to start the master study was actually not a proper plan to me, I never think of i will start and how should i end it, i enjoyed the moments to be in classes again, it make me feel relax...meet with friends whom have no special interests or other intention on us, but i did. I have purposes to sign up for master study, intentionally or unintentionally...

1. kill my free times.. very free at times, lost direction when age approaching 30..
2. look for soul mate...as my brother met his wife in master course, i wish i can do the same as well; met someone attracted me, unfortunately she is taken or distance problem.. I love Penang very much..hardly willing to move away cause of someone, but I wish she could move to Penang cause of me.. at the end, I met no body.
3. for better future prospect...everyone has degree now, if i have higher qualification, then make me more outstanding. (sadly in current company, qualification doesn't make you outstanding, performance is, saddest thing is boss is in US...i cant read his mind how will he evaluate my performance.)
4. make my career looks more professional...Accountant got ACCA, CPA.. Engineers got... (dunno what professional body for engineers) Procurement..a general pecerptions that everyone can be a purchasers. So, I wanna make myself looks more professional..this master course entitled me for 2 professional membership, CIPS ( Chartered Institute of Purchasing & Supply) and CILT (Chartered Institute if Logistic & Transportation).
5. make more side income, has master qualification can teach part time in college or private institution...

hopefully in 2011...my master qualification will make something different for me.

convocation...

2010-09-27T22:24:00.002+08:00

2nd square hat is on the way...may miss it if the business trip is postponed to end of Oct. But hopefully not..

back in end of 2008, i had nothing but too much times and need something to kill... to continue study was an option came across my mind. i didnt spend too much times and efforts to find for the courses i wanted to study, just thought of to get something related to my career... i picked supply chain management as my master course.

along 2009, i went thru hard times..job changed..study...travel. but i very enjoy the good times we had in the classroom with all adult students. 4 penangite and a kl folks became a click...no time to meet, and facebook is the channel to see our updates.

this master study is really my self effort..no one to guide for study, independently need to complete the research assignment and examination...never think of I will complete it at the beginning, and now is completed.

full of changes..

2010-08-28T00:52:00.002+08:00

many thing happened since I changed to new working environment, this is my 2nd month in new jobs, but others start to have more expectation and reaction from me.

in early of Aug, I went through some career crisis, being commented that my performance not up to expectation and lack of interest/ competency for holding the position, I took this comment as humiliation to me and I could not accept this easily. I need to prove that I am capable to hold this position and the comments towards me are bullshit.

finally, I completed my master study, got the dissertation 15k words submitted, it is important in one mindset never hypnosis yourself to believe you cant do anything, never try never know. I didn't even expect myself were able to complete the study and produced the dissertation as I perceived this is mission impossible initially. Since this is part of programme requirement, we have to do it or else will never graduate. Thus, need to do it along the way and now it is completed, I just waiting for result and email for questions if they have any. One month passed, I didn't get the email and I just treat it that I have passed my master degree and now is waiting for convocation.

new career create new life style..more night con-call is adding to my life especially Tue and Wed night are full of con-call, the golden hours 8-10pm are occupied with con-call which I need to lock myself in the room to continue work. I am given a blackberry as well, now is like 24/7 on call and access to emails.

Sooner or later, I might be workaholic..

poor with money left over..

2010-07-12T14:31:00.004+08:00

Money cant buy everything, but without money, we are feeling lack of security, especially when we have desires, but cant be fulfilled as we are running out of cashes. for normal working class, we only enjoy the happiness once a month, and that happiness only last for 24 hours.

that happiness was the moment when you found salary have been banked in! But, overnight, your paycheck will need to cover debt from credit cards, insurance, utilities, petrol, rental, investment and many expenses. That's the reason I said the joy only last for 24 hours.

We often look for higher pay jobs, but forgot to cut down the ways we spent, the moment we got the job with higher pay, we were so happy and spent first, we dont mind to treat other meals, suppose a farewell became an appreciation to the team, suppose let 14 people to treat us a good meal became we treated 14 people a good meal.

When credit card statement due and the paycheck from new job yet to ready, then we started to get panic and need to squeeze every cent of saving to pay for credit card payment first, cause we do not want to get our creditability spoiled, we dont want to pay the unnecessary interest for being late payment. That's the moment, we started to feel the bitter moment for being spent unwisely due to joy of getting new job; this is a portrait to a working class.

However, being the rich guy which no need to worry about the money, as even at the time they go toilet, the business or investment is still making money for them, thus money is not a real concern. But, they need to spend money wisely, more people are expecting helps from those riches; if I were riches, i will help by looking into their needs and conditions, if they worth for help, I wont reject. Even I am not rich now, monthly I make donations to NGO and charities organisation, the amount of donation is not significant, but it make some differences.

Some riches afraid to get cheated and avoid troublesome, thus they always shut the door to those seek for their helps, keep the money to themselves. At the end, they are poorer than anyone, poor with money left over...no real friends or relatives whom really care for them, not their money.

diary in 2005

2010-06-21T23:21:00.002+08:00

i never intend to write diary as habit, but in 2005 i wrote a few pages diary...cant recall why i wrote that a few pages, but it refreshed my memory now by looking back into these writing.

the diary contents about my 2nd relationship; self-fooling with a few ladies to go after as those ladies never have good feeling towards me, a lesson learnt from the worst boss on first job, being expelled from first job with no compensation and dissatisfied explanation. however, i wrote a email to him at last to express appreciation on great lesson learnt from him, no one ever worse than him. Eventually that company also closed down within half a year after I left, they even owned me 3 months EPF contribution after deducted my salary.

looking back another desire for business trip, that time i teamed with a senior to handle US production transfer to Penang, my boss told me a chance to travel to US, i was dying for that chance, end up nothing happen. even until today, i still hope for a chance for business trip, but that chance yet to happen. for other whom frequent travel, may tired of travel, but i just want to experience it..even just once.

these diary should no longer be kept, will destroy it by tomorrow.

be the one you want to be

2010-06-07T00:02:00.002+08:00

i had breakfast at McD in early morning..saw a paper on the tray which introduce one of Malaysia McD senior management. What caught my attention was the bold print out " be the one you want to be".

i was thinking along breakfast time, half an hour gone..and the answer was blank, " who am I wanna be?"

everyone wanted be someone, and that someone wanted to be like everyone, we often see how presentable someone are, but we never see how much that someone need to sacrifice and going through.

i saw a senior manager in my ex com, and i wanna in his position in 15 years time, this was the target set at that time, as the fresh grad in the working environment. why wanna be him? just because he has high pay, car allowance and designated car park. but, who knows how big and heavy responsibility on his shoulders?

since grad...i never know where i should head to, i even let the first job offer to decide my destiny, which means what position i grabbed at the first time, i make that my lifelong career path, end up i got the offer for admin cum procurement assistant, when have cum..means that you are expected to be multitasking.

procurement..now i make it my career path and doing well...in future will be bigger scope : supply chain.

mxiture feeling

2010-06-01T02:49:00.002+08:00

kinda of mixture feeling, no right and wrong. but just being curious wanna know. since started my life as working adult, i resigned twice for better career prospect. often heard that other got counter offer to retain in the company, but i never experience.

thus, really not sure that my departure is a relief to someone, or a blessing, wishes that i entitled to better thing?

my first resignation happened when i was dying to leave the company, even got the promotion, that didn't make me happier. 3 years and 8 months service in the same department, strong conflict with some colleagues... my departure was announced on next morning in the team meeting, when others wanted some treat from my promotion, they got the shocked of my resignation, some how, treat was still going on...followed by farewell.

entered in new environment, i told myself, this was just a rest stop...i didn't really put much efforts and initiative in the works, i focused on my study rather than works, the plan was to stay not more than 1 year, end up stay for 1 year and 7 months.

but extra 7 months is worth to wait...now i have the thing i wanted be..

difficult July

2010-05-25T21:34:00.002+08:00

i guess this coming Jul will be the most challenging for my careers and future. if I can go through, my entire effort is paid off, if i cant get through, it means another obstacle to be removed.

other often opted no to have career changed during study, me too, kinda no different from. I even requested my boss not to add on workload to me before i complete my dissertation in July, she promised and asked me must stay on after July, this is pretty fair deal. but in between, she forgot the promises and i have been dragged into some projects, now i need to do system testing from 5/24 till 6/11, 3 weeks...everyday 2nd half of working day are contributed to system testing, more than 60 scenarios with almost 400 actions to perform in test script.

changes cant always accommodate your plan, in fact you should always accommodate changes in your plan. in the least expectation, i got a very good offer from other company, how could i resist? i went through 3 rounds interview. first was with hiring manager, second was with the company employees and sub con staff ( first time encounter this situation, you were interviewed by the peers and sub con employees, as in future need to deal with them, thus the hiring manager wanna hear their input.) last was con call with US managers. Suppose to get the news within 1 week, but after 1 week still no news, I assumed the chance was out.

last fri, finally got the offer..is a pretty good deal. I am waiting for offer letter to come, then only can tender resignation. July will be the first month with new company, its also the month for my dissertation submission. that's why i consider i have the most challenging July, need to pick up new job in day time and rush the dissertation at night time, cant let either side to fail.

I need a full week off before start new job, then in July will be more manageable.

treat other nice and respect

2010-05-09T23:17:00.002+08:00

no matter in what circumstances, we should always treat other nice and respect, especially those in working field, because we never know when will that someone will be our superior.

i guess my ex colleague will have a big shock, i use the word shock rather than surprise, cause shock may consist of fears.

we used to have arguments in ex company, because the ex manager had favoritism, he might not realise it as she is the great pretender, always quote manager words to order us to do the tasks. As if we requested her to do some tasks for us, she was also escalate to manager to justify the validity of our requests. Often, we got the job back to us.

There were no team spirit at that moment, 4 of us found that we had been marginalised, almost every tasks we did was pinpointed by someone, the other colleagues in the team were influenced by her to be calculative and selfish.

At last, i left the company for better offer, a few months later, she left as well. the ex manager was extremely disappointed, as he did a lot effort to retain her and asked her to reconsider, but who didn't want more money?

she accepted a new job in a sub-con company with prettier pay, some times later some of her gang members also joined her in the new company. But she may not expect that I will get the offer for the job to manage sub-con team. Now, I am the indirect manager to the sub con team and she is indirectly report to me...

I don't know what will happen then, maybe she will quit the job as she is reporting to me..she may afraid i will revenge by pinpoint her back.

In fact, I am Mr Nice..nice to everyone, but when you wanna play nasty...I will play it well.

plans need to accomodate changes

2010-04-25T17:58:00.002+08:00

we need plans for our lives, especially for future. Even a fortune teller cant predict your future life 100%, unless you have the opportunity like in movie scene whereby you can travel to future to see what you might be in the next 20-30 years.

no matters what, from the day we were born, we are all head towards the same direction, death! if you know anyone can avoid death, pls share with the world, the only differences are how we make the lives live differently, whether to contribute or spoil the harmony of the society.

For average 75 years of living, the life is always full of plans. Even when we were small, we ambitious to be somebody when we growth, that was beginning of the plan that you wanted be someone, no ones know whether the plan worked or not as the life is full of unpredicted changes.

that's the reason we need always accommodate unpredicted incidents when plan for next 10 years of live. We plan for marriage, need to take into consideration of unable having child, divorce or external marital affairs. if you think this is nonsense to think about when both are in sweet love, just need to think this is part of the life and life has never been easy for anyone, even a Richie rich has the worries.

Plan is one matter, flexibility has to be in plan. You plan to further study, thus you need to stay with current company as it provide stability and sources of information you need for study. When a better offer come at the time being, will you give up? or take the challenges? new working environment full of uncertainty, a new learning cycle start again. This is not in your original plan when took up the course.

Always accommodate changes in your plan, then you will not get caught in surprises.

willingness to share

2010-04-09T10:53:00.003+08:00

Are you willing to share information? especially the attractive deal. or you think lesser ppl know, is better?

I have kinda struggling moment just now to share with my friend about the good deal; this is human nature, i guess so. I have a job interview appointment, as not quite sure about the place, thus need to query a friend guidance. Curiosity is human nature, when you ask for 1 thing, seldom have others will not ask for further info.

My friend with no exceptions, ask for further info as well. At that moment, I really feel reluctant to comment further, being afraid that he will surely apply for the vacancy if the info disclosed, less ppl know means that greater chances for me, direct competitions from friend make me unease. I may blame him to spoil my chance to the vacancy if he get the offer.

Just a wild thinking on a fact and also wanna look for answer for this question:
why we cannot stand or accept the fact we lose to someone closer?

on another thought, i shared the info at last; if he can get the offer, he is surely more capable than me and I need to further improve myself to remain competitive in the job market, there are hundreds and thousands job seekers in the market, only the best got the best deal, you still need to compete with many others. Why need to feel bad or awful to accept the fact? the fact that you are not competitive for the deal.

how much you worth for?

2010-03-15T18:14:00.003+08:00

everyone has a price, just look at how much salary you get from your employment.

when you ask for a salary raise or higher salary during interview job, they often ask you the most tricky question : prove to me that you worth this much, or why i should hire you with the salary you ask for?

how should you answer then? higher education can guarantee higher pay?

today went interview, not looking for new job eagerly, but just to test market only, see how much I can worth for. the interviewer seems no sincerity, even eyes contact also at minimal, keep looking outside, i also feel reluctant to answer more and ask for more. dont feel good about him, even if they offer me the job, i dont think will accept.

Operation of Isolation

2010-03-04T21:18:00.002+08:00

viewed the exam results few days ago, all passed. not with flying color, but 2B and 4C for 6 modules should be not bad since I never aims for distinction.

time is ticking non stop , slip from finger towards 26 July, final day to submit 12-18k words dissertation, after last exam in early Jan, I was totally relax and keep dragging the thing till today with no progress.

finally, CNY gone, I should have no more excuses to drag further, especially I keep have leaving current company in mind to have better prospect at outside. friends keep advising and brain washing me, when i finish my master, i shall have bright prospect, but i am still thinking where is it?

to be frank, at that time thought of to study was just purely to find the way kept myself busy, as i thought my times too free. I didn't fall in love, even busy in many activities still feel empty. thus, started master study might be a good idea to fill up the emptiness.

since the study started, not only filled up the emptiness, i nearly got choke and drown with this decision. some how for whatever had started, we shall end it nicely, so i shall at least pass all the modules and get my master degree.

from 15 Mar onwards, i shall officially isolate myself from all the activities that committed before, till end of July, 4 and the half month shall enough for me to produce 12k words dissertation, hopefully...cross fingers.

mum's cook book

2010-02-25T21:44:00.002+08:00

many blogs introduce about foods, they can recommend many places offer goods f&b experiences easily, but seldom have blogs to introduce the chefs have been cooking for years to feed their stomach.

Not all outside foods are better than home cook meal, even world class chef can hardly cook the taste and feel of homes.

I plan to open a blog to introduce my mum's cooking, as she is a good cook. Every Sunday, she is surely cook for family during the gathering, 6-7 dishes at least. It never come to my mind to find a way to note down these dishes cooking method till last week, this idea came in mind.

A bit challenges is my mum's cooking never measure those ingredient and seasoning, mostly add a bit this and a bit that, magically, the dishes are always taste good.

Plan to start a new blog by this week, see what I can record down through my eyes.

too free in office

2010-02-18T14:07:00.002+08:00

too free in office is not enjoyable scenario; firstly, time hard to past and secondly is sleepy especially after lunch for good meals.

i started work yesterday, 4th day of CNY. Since my support area is mainly in China which mostly still in holidays. Thus, really have minimum emails flow to my inbox which required action items, as compared to before almost an email every minute, now i have an email in half an hour and mostly those email which you can delete upon arrive.

i plan to get a camera backpack by today, so now is surfing around to look for reviews. Most of the colleague is back to office now, and now I just want to keep myself low profile and enjoy the peace of mind.

Personally, too free in office make us feel self useless and also great uncertainty cause this is not a good sign which mean your position may be demolished anytime. When too free in office, pls dont free good and enjoy it, you are at the risk of losing your job.

sharing and tearing

2010-02-13T21:39:00.002+08:00

2 days ago, when about to leave office at 8pm, i saw a friend still in the office, i knew that she is having relationship crisis and in fact is one of a few close friends that knew this.

we had talks for almost 2 and the half hours, switched from 1 place to another, she used to be a tough person, along the 5 years, I didn't have chance to see her drop a single tear. But, this round when talked about her relationship, her eyes turned red and tears dropped.

she had doubt whether she pressured a lot on her boyfriend, as her hope and intention to get married after 3 years in relationship and hope that her boyfriend is able to get a new house as preparation to marriage; subsequently her boyfriend skipped the pressure by asked for a break. To my theory and philosophy, the pressure is the same from every lady whom in love, it's just a matter of how a man to handle the pressure and face it.

I told her that this situation was like putting a stone on turtle and snail, both have the shell to protect themselves, weight of stone is the same; however,turtle can absorb the weight, but snail will die when the stone place on it.

A turtle can turn to ninja and save the world, but snail...

CNY is coming to town!

2010-02-06T22:03:00.002+08:00

Xmas and New Year just gone, and Chinese New Year is coming to town.
Getting aging and feel time is flying fast, from blue blue Monday, eyes flips then is Friday. Go dating at Friday night till Saturday morning, and then has a nice break at Saturday.

Getting lazier and feel more crisis on my body, the weight is growing, waist is getting bigger size, I have to buy bigger pants to fit my size. A few months ago, saw the advertisement on massanger from Osim - Ukimono, I felt that this massager can ease my laziness and reduce the weight easiness, just plug to socket and let the machine work.

Somehow, the frequency to use the massanger is countable, feel deeply sorry to my girlfriend that gifted me the massager as Xmas gift that was from my strong request and convinced her this surely working well on me. >_<

CNY is coming, more cookies, junk foods and soft drink consumption, I guess how much weight I shall put on ?? "_"

Age to decide the relationship...

2010-01-17T13:53:00.003+08:00

It is a great sadness to take age as main consideration whether to continue the relationship.

a female friend encountered the relationship crisis recently, she cried out and even had the suicidal thoughts when alone in home, the house seems to empty and too big to her as it is full of sweet memories of both.

my friend's brother is planning to propose his girlfriend and get married within this year, as eldest in the family, her marriage and future happiness is definitely a concern to everyone in the family. She cant take the pressure and start to question her boyfriend about his future plan for their both relationship, this put a great pressure into him. After great fight, he decided to end the relationship as he is mentally and financially not ready for marriage.

however, my friend is thinking to give in by continue the relationship as she is 30 plus now and quite conservative; to end this relationship, she needs a long time to recover and start another relationship. Great uncertainty in future make her unease, thus she still wanna continue the relationship.

List Your Big 5

2009-12-31T18:16:00.002+08:00

end of 2009, received an email from friend: List your big 5; eventually this is another email inspired you to set the goal you want to achieve in new year. New Year; New hope.

What 5 things need to happen between now and December 31, 2010 for this to have been the single most successful year of my life to date?"

my answers are simple,

1. finish my study, gain the title of Master in Supply Chain management
2. make the current relationship durable, I just nearly stepped into the trap set by devil of greed.
3. start invest in retirement plan, plan for next 30 years to go.
4. engage in property investment, start from the property of RM200k
5. increase the amount of donation for social and environment well being from current 1k annually to 2k, not only money contribution, personal involvement as well.

where is Malaysia civil knowledge gone?

2009-12-02T20:25:00.004+08:00

Look at the picture and guess where is this place?

I cant imagine this situation happened in Borders Bookshop. Yes, you dont have to open your mouth wide...

Where is Malaysian civil knowledge gone, simple as replace the book nicely after read it also have problem to do it properly. What a shame!!

Maybe Borders Book Shop is focusing more on English books division, thus Chinese book division has been ignored. None of the staff seems to care what is happening there.

Thanks to Borders allow the readers enjoy the reading without pay $ inside the book shop, but the convenience has been abused.

Malaysia, come on...pls enhance your civil knowledge, appreciate what have others done for you and not to abuse it, dont get the convenience at other expenses.

Never Been Love

2009-11-29T00:54:00.003+08:00

At the age of 30, never been loved. Finally, I got the answer at last. This not mean to humiliate my friend, but being concern and have strong interest to know his love life for long time.

Every time, during friend gathering, when touch on love topic, he is surely "tai chi" to skip the topic; to my surprise, he is trapped with this topic tonight and willing to share. Until now, he still doesn't know where is his life head to, being comfortable and less worry in daily life, obviously he is well protected in the family. The only interest is to play computer games since secondary school till now.

Last year, he was intentionally step in a problematic relationship, whom the couples relationship on and off for several times. At the time which he thought he could have captured the lady's heart and put her away from her ex, the lady called to inform him that she was pregnant. This was a trauma. At last, he had to give up, or else he would be instant step father and he took about half a year to recover.

Now, he is still looking and observing. Wish you good luck, my friend, may you meet a right one soon.

Last night of the MSc course

2009-11-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

Time is flying fast. when I signed up for my Master course in early January, looked at the itinerary, I need to make 7 trips to KL for class and tutorial. From knowing no body till now, we have a group of 5, 4 Penangite and 1 KL folk become a click gang. Even KL folk can understand and speak hokkien, with mixture of hokkien and English, we have no problem to get the message across.

2 semester is gone, and this is the third semester, should be the final one we need to attend class, do assignment and sit for exam. Tonight is the last night we stay in KL and after tomorrow class, we will no need to attend any class anymore. After all, we are feeling heavy now.

After class at 5pm, Eddie picked us to go to for steamboat at "Little Fat Lamb" in Pudu, followed by window shop at Pavilion, KL golden triangle new landmark, this is my first time to be there, great to be there as I have "eyes wash" with many beauty appearances. My lady classmate, Joanne, which used to be small capacity "kancil" turned out to be monster truck today as she wanna built up the belly for her belly dance class. She ate the most in steamboat and still screaming for hungry. End up, Eddie fetched us to SS2 for dessert, then only she satisfied her hunger stomach.

for almost 1 year in class, I never ask and keep their contact number, this round we exchange the contact number. After this, we shall busy for assignment in Dec, exam and dissertation progress report in Jan 2010.

If my initial thought to sign up for Master course is to kill my spare times, it has met the purpose, as I am busy for entire 2009. No time for X'mas and new year celebration, but great that to know a group of new friends through this course.

that's why Malaysia will hard to be developed country

2009-11-17T19:25:00.002+08:00

This is my sixth time on leave, to go government department and yet to get the thing done as I wanted. Partly because of my ignorance, and some caused by the poor attitudes of the public servants.

We have a stall in market, since my dad passed away, the ownership is now changed to my name. I need to on leave for 4 times (4 half days), to settle the things. First time, was quite close to Raya holidays, the clerk on leave, no backup, while she was away, her job can be just on hold until she is back. So, nothing can be done.

2nd time, a week after Raya, I on leave to go to the office, once again, she yet to back from Raya. No one could help, this round, I asked for the contact number.

3rd time, I called before I went to the office, she was in the office. By the time, I were there, she was missing again cause of doctor appointment, her colleague didn't know that she had the appointment.

For 3 times I was there, I asked for input whether my document was sufficient or not to get my request process, no one can give me the accurate answer on my request.

the 4th time, she was in finally, and due to my document insufficient, she rejected my request, i rushed back to collect the document and went back again to office, it was 3pm in the afternoon, the office suppose to end by 4.30pm. Once again, she refused to process my request with reason not enough time to do it. This was the most stupid reason I heard before.

Poor quality service and yet everytime asked for good pay raise without considering the economic condition. Almost every industry has offered VSS, laid off workers, but public sector are hiring more people than it should be. Before ask for raise, CUEPAC should review internally whether all of its member entitled to or not?

Undeniable, some public servants work effectively and helpful, but some are totally mess, their existence are just make the department performance worse to worst.

working on Saturday

2009-10-31T14:37:00.002+08:00

This is usual Saturday with unusual arrangement- work on Saturday. I have been long time didnt work on Saturday, usually busy with activities and studies.

Last Thursday, during the team meeting, the boss requested to clear the annual leave before end of the year, and she does not accept the under table deal request to carry forward the leave. Just wonder why other team can do so and she could not do us the favour? The leave system is suck and kinda of struggle for long time before accepted the offer, other US based company can allow to bring forward the leave up to 38 days, and why not for this company?

Have been talking to myself that wont stay long in this company, should be less than a year, but 3 more weeks will be my 1 year service with this company; resign within a year need to give 1 month notice, after 1 year service, 2 months are required.

My job is highly replaceable with no specific background, knowledge and experiences required, everyone can on board instantly with some training given, that's the reason I am looking into more challenging tasks, create more values to myself, further study to furbish my resume.

I aim for project management as my future career path, but when the opportunity come, I was a bit chicken out, my ex company is hiring supply chain project lead, the requirement frighten me out, need to have knowledge in IT and finance which I am poor in.

Clock in at 12.13pm, now the job is almost done, and I need to clock out at 3pm, then login in system to submit for OT instantly, or else i will do free job like last time, came in for support the whole team, end up forgot to submit OT claim before cut off...

7th PC on the way...

2009-10-04T20:33:00.003+08:00

Finally, make up my mind to get a new laptop. My current laptop is still quite ok, but with only 512Mb memory and 60GB HDD storage capacity that I bought 4-5 years ago, is a bit out now, unless I sent to get it upgrade.

The new laptop will be my 7th PC, in fact is the cheapest among. I had my first desktop in 1996, at that time, Intel introduced first Pentium, the desktop processor model was Pentium 100, that desktop cost me nearly RM5k.

I had my 2nd desktop in year 1999, Pentium 3, CPU was much smaller as it was Mini Tower and that cost me about RM4k. First laptop I had was in year 2003, black color with Pentium 4 processor, in fact this was the worst thing I bought, cause Centrino processor was offered at that time with cheaper price, as yet I didn't notice about that and bought this bulky monster at first sight, paid a regret price about RM4k.

Follow by Compaq laptop in 2006, a better performance laptop, cost me RM3k+; HP laptop, given by my ex-company, I had it for 3 years till the end of leasing period that was also almost same timing as I left the company.

Joint the new company; a world class PC manufacturer, they gave me a new laptop which is my 6th PC. This laptop is helping me a lot with my study as I am using it to prepare my assignments and seeking for info, in rushing hours to finish my assignments, my personal Compaq laptop sometimes are slow respond. In a few occasion, I was nearly thrown it away in the midst of rushing assignments, cause it hanged and couldn't catch up the speed I wanted it be.

With Employee Purchase Scheme, the new laptop is cost less than RM2k with MS Windows7 upgradable. Thus, I have decided to go for it.

Back to blog again

2009-09-28T22:13:00.002+08:00

Back to blog again, and just realized that I have been away for more than 2 months which at one times I think blogging is larger than life. Whatever story I heard from my friends around, they like or not, it will become part my blogs.

While away for 2 months, many things happened. Some make good progress while some not, some need for changes and some should remain.

Study, make good progress, going to the end by Dec with exam and assignments. Then, follow with researches on my career area to be end at Jul 2010, 10 months to go...counting down...

Careers, it's time to make some changes, career path with current company is not so identical, they offer high level of position and higher pay for the same level of jobs, my colleague was hired with higher level, but do the same jobs as mine. How do you feel then? Waiting for St Jude Medical to open up the hiring in Penang, everyone is eagerly to be part of this new company, me too. I apply "The Secret" technique secretly every night before sleep, imagine I am hired and sent to US fir training for half a year. This picture looks so real that sometimes I talked with my friends, everything is already happened. SJM, one of Top 100 most admired company in US in 2008. But, when come to Malaysia, will it still be the most admired?

I am a life time learning guy, like to learn a lot, will master it or not is another matter. Sometimes, i think I can handle many things at once, thus committed to too many things, end up nothing was performing good, I got blames at last. Thus, now I am learning to let go, less commitment to activities, be selective to a few only activities which I can focus on.

I am confident with a bit stubbornness, confident that I can do something, when I cannot make it, I dont want to give up easily, not sure this is good or not.

Facebook and blog

2009-07-26T21:18:00.003+08:00

Recently spend more times on facebook than blogs, has been busy to plant and harvest the fruits and vege. For entire July, I am just busy as virtual farmer online, my colleagues are also got attracted to the facebook games.

Since I started with facebook, I am seldom login friendster now. Facebook has more interactions with friends and games, friendster is less attractive to me now.

Start busy with assignments again, has 5 weeks to go for 2 assignments submission, and recently is busier with organising the events, works and others.

Shall start to focus on blog again in the end of Aug after all the business is settled.

Hero and Fool

2009-06-06T16:45:00.003+08:00

What make hero a hero and what make fool a fool?

Recently, our seats restructured as more people joined in the team, I have no ideas why the female colleagues afraid to take cubs a bit further from the team, complaint a lot and approached many people to swap the place, to ease her concerns, I offered my cub to her and moved to that unwanted place, but I am comfortable to be here. Am I hero or fool?

During job transition, my colleague has the concerns that she needs to fetch her children on time before and after office hours, thus she has great concerns to come here to my place to do the transition as what I requested initially, take turn to travel. Finally, I give in by travel to her place often. For past 2 days, I stuck in traffic jams for 1 hours + on the bridge. Am I hero or fool?

Yesterday, the boss expected someone to standby at today to update the shortage reports, emails flied and no one responds, I offered my service while everyone else has leisure at somewhere else at the moment as today is public holiday. Am I hero or fool?

Hero and the fool, make no different, just how people perceive the person is.

3 co- incidences

2009-05-25T21:31:00.003+08:00

Meeting with friends are always fun, especially in exchanging the info, in another word "gossip". recently I attended my secondary schoolmate wedding and got to know another friend won his girl friend through betting...kinda childish and didn't take the relationship seriously when first to hear the story.

In fact, there were 2 co-incidents happened and make my friend to bet with the girl, if there are 3rd co-incident happen, then they are meant to be.

1st co-incidence, a restaurant newly opened for business in town, she discussed with her colleague during office hours and decided to go there to have a try at later time; on that night, he brought her to there for dinner, she didn't tell him anything about the restaurant, he just planned to bring her to a nice environment place for dinner...

2nd co-incidence, during her birthday, her girl friend approached her what she wanted for birthday gift, she respond jokingly that she wanted a bouquet of flower to be delivered to her office. Next day, the flower was delivered.

Feel unbelievable, she told him, and he dared her for a betting, if they meant to be together, then there should be 3rd co incident happen, then she shall be his girl friend, she accepted the betting.

3rd co-incidence happened, she wanna go seaside, but didn't want to tell him, end up he brought her to seaside to see sunset..

So, they are really meant to be...their relationship started after the sunset sight seeing...

First day on exam

2009-05-23T13:49:00.002+08:00

My last exam paper was in Sep 2004 in Sheffield Hallam University, since entered into working environment, the input method is typing more than writing.

This morning, I spent 2 hours wrote non stop for my first MBA exam paper E-Business Strategy and Models, my finger is still in pain now. I have been 4 years plus didn't write the grandmother story during exam, for today, I didn't manage my time properly in exam, 2 hours to answer 4 questions, 1 question needs half an hour to complete, I took 1 hour 45 min to answer only 3, the last 15 min left for last question.

Not sure of because nervous or the effect of caffeine, I couldn't sleep last night, lied down at 12.30 am and woke up at 3.40am, I got no mood to study so logged in facebook to play online games till 6.30am..

I believe no matter what was my input in the exam, I will still pass the paper, the exam is just the system to test your understanding to the subject, and the strategy is very subjective matters, there is no right and wrong, as long as the strategy works..so, how are they going to fail me if my strategy input is reasonable.

Impulsive Buying Behaviour

2009-05-22T21:08:00.003+08:00

If you study marketing or any management subject, consumer buying behaviour is one of the study topic... it analyse the way the consumers purchase the item online or not.

1st step is recognise the need to buy, collect info, make comparison, make decision and excecute the buy decision ..bla ..bla..those steps are useless to me as I am a consumer with impulsive buying behaviour, often I come, I see, I buy...

Not because I am rich, but sometimes just cant resist the offers. Like today, my impulsive buying behaviour almost happened again, I went to SEC warehouse sales at Bayan Lepas FIZ during lunch time, the sales price is not really attractive. Discount up to 70% and 80% are those used to be free gift item, now turn to the sales commodity. Even those old model, like bluetooth handfree at "very attractive" discounted price is still expensive than new model one.

I almost purchased a compact digital camera priced at RM500+, by right, I should take the invoice and pay first, I think that sales person must be new birdie as he just handed the camera with the pouch and memory card to me and asked me to queue at the counter to pay.

When I was in the long queue, he came and requested me to return the item first for my convenience, convineince for no need to hold the bulky stuff during the queue, what i think must be his supervisor scolded him to hand me the camera without purchase proof.

This is good as preventive step, for me is kind of insultive action, I instantly lose the interest to buy, just tore off the invoice and walk away. Anyway, I must thanks to that new birdie, save me from spending RM500+ impulsively.

exam in 1 more week

2009-05-16T01:42:00.002+08:00

I will have exam in 1 more week, has been 5 years away from exam since graduated years ago. Now need to sit for exam again, a bit nervous and do not know what to study as well.

Promised my friend to help in his wedding, but i forgot I need to on midnight duty from 12-6am, till my shiftmate sms me to counter check whether I am ok to on duty on my own. I hardly to reject people, thus I replied ok to be alone.

I just have a few hours to rest, later need to meet them at 9am then go to bride house, in the afternoon, I still have meeting and in night time, we have dinner in town, I will be exhausted.

Recently met with a friend whom is not very pleasant to deal with, demanding for attentions and wanna people spend times with her, not sure is because lacked of security due to family issues or is her personality. I cant stand well with people whom demanding for attention, my vocal of speaking has became rude and impatient with her.

She reminded me of my housemate in KL years ago, almost same type like her, demanded for attentions, need people took care of her in term of transports, foods and etc...I could not stand with her style, and always have argument and fight with her, bullied her as well. I was a great bully in the house especially to her.

I am now standing firm with that gal, don't try to demand anything from me, any activity, I will meet her at somewhere, instead of need to travel long way to fetch her, I do not want any unnecessary misunderstand happened, no matter it will or not.

Wedding dinner in KL

2009-05-03T20:48:00.003+08:00

"Young man, you looks cool and calm. Are you in politic? you have a bright future!" This was the comment from a stranger.

I was attending the wedding dinner of my old pen friend, we known each other for 15 years and I really find no reason to skip this invitation. Thus, I travelled lightly to KL just to attend the dinner, the dinner was held in Federal Hotel, Bukit Bintang. I think the dinner was simple and glamorous, simple in term of the ceremony, no karaoke, no live band performance, but just the toast to all the guest. Glamorous in term of the restaurant itself as it's full of Chinese traditional decorations.

She was so touch and even her mother also known my presence, my attendance seems to be their honour whereby her mother personally came to greet me for twice and when the dinner came to the end, her mother keep hand shake with great appreciation shown on her face.

Initially she wanted to arrange the seat for me with her secondary school friends, but the seats were not enough, end up I was arranged to be seated with her mum's secondary school friends, I have no generation gap to make a comfort in the dinner. When they talked about the old times, I just shut up and listen, while talked something general, I joined in to give comment.

The guy who commented me cool and calm seated opposite to me, I was surprise when he commented so even though this is not first time I heard of such comment, but to a stranger that first time met, he was the first one.

Later he asked for my contact. ha ha..not sure if he got kang tao for me... who knows?

Bed times romance story

2009-04-19T02:02:00.005+08:00

I wrote a lot of friends' romance story, but I seldom touched on my piece.

These few days, I was rushing for assignment and need to online whole day to look for info, thus I have chance to meet with many friends online. Just 5 minutes ago, before a friend logged off for bed, we shared about our romance stories to each other, maybe at night time, I was more relax and accidentally revealed an old romance story I seldom share with others and this became her bed time story.

I was offered to hold a girl friend hand in KLCC park years ago when I was new in KL for study, even for just 5 minutes, but feel like eternity, my hand was sweat cause of nervous and heart was beating fast with this unexpected offer.

I liked her very much and took good care of her during Pg TARC time, she is pretty and smart, graduated with strong merit but she didn't go KL further study because of sickness, she expressed disappointment that couldn't join us Penangite to further study in KL TARC.

She came to KL suppose to accompany her friend for interview; end up, we spent times together for whole day, I brought her tour around KL till dinner time, we were in KLCC park and we walked together so close, suddenly she offered me to hold her hand, i was in shock but I just grabbed her hand and continue to walk for quite a distance.

she pulled out her hand at last and said that if continue to let me to hold, things may go wrong, so

she wanna stop it before went wrong. To be honest, till today I still puzzle if she didn't want to over the border and just want to be friend , then why she let me to hold her hand?

At last, she asked me to call her or sms her whenever I was passing by Taiping from or to KL and I followed exactly...no matter drove, or took bus, when I saw Taiping road sign, I surely call her.

This action was continuing till I got to know, she had a boyfriend and planned to marry, then only I stop this stupid action.

Waiting in Skypark

2009-04-05T19:36:00.003+08:00

Subang Airport is now renamed as Skypark, only airplane can park there...so should be flight park or plane park, why name as Skypark? Sky is thousand miles above here, how to park?

This is a tricky question, why have to burden myself to think of the question? Because I am too free now, 6 intellers accompany me at starbuck here to wait for the flight. I didnt expect they will take the flight as well.

As part of conversation, we started to gossip around what happen in respective company, one of them told me that her lady boss's husband did the most sensation hing when he wanna chase her, he sent the love confession via email to the service desk mail stop, whereby all her employee can access to that email as well, luckily that guy is now the husband, or else the risky move will definitely become the topic of gossip for years.

Another fact I learned from a friend that the best seller item in Malaysia biggest convenience shop chains are cigarette, condom and mineral water, in fact they indirectly collect the info of consumer buying behaviour whenever you visit the convenience shop, that info will sell to the vendor who needs it when wanna setup business in particular place.

For the 3 bestsellers, I linked the items to a conclusion that after the guy exercise with condom, he needs cigarette to relax, and drink mineral water to refill the dehydration.

Another Love Story

2009-03-29T21:31:00.007+08:00

Everyone like to fall in love; but afraid to be hurt. What a dilemma.

I have a friend, her first love was last for only 5 days.... Yes, 5 days. The shortest ever I heard among my friends, if you heard of any lesser than this, pls inform me.

Reason being that, the guy was strongly recommended by her parents and she was unprepared for it, but her parents put her on the spot by pushing her to step in the relationship as she was the only whom never fall in love among 4 sisters.

She rejected that guy after 5 days they were in relationship, suppose that guy could convince her to stay on and this relationship can definitely last longer than 5 days because she was in great uncertainty at that time, but that guy just hands off. Sometimes, guy cannot behave like gentleman in this way especially when he had met someone, grabbed her to stay on and she will be his.

Poor guy that handed off but wanna come back later, the door was shut. He keep sms and call her, instead of got her back, he blew her away further, he became her phobia.

An Interesting Love Story

2009-03-25T21:08:00.002+08:00

Despite the hectic and heavy working day, an interesting love story brighten my day and make us laughed along the way back to office.

We went out for lunch yesterday due to some business matter, it has been 3 weeks I quarantined myself from going out for lunch due to heavy workloads and issues, went out for lunch mean more times spent which is now luxurious I couldn't afford.

We met with 2 gentlemen and a lady, my colleagues played fool on me to match make with that lady that I tried to avoid. After the lunch, I drove my colleagues back, inside the car, we touched on love topic and suddenly my colleague started to complain about her husband.

She met her husband 6 months after her broken relationship of 6 years with first love, at that time, she was in the worst ever condition- low self-esteem, face full of pimples and didn't want to dress up herself. Luckily, she got a group of friends accompanied her to pass the hardest time, they brought her out for outdoor activities, gathering and clubbing, that's where she met her husband.

Her hubby was at disco for farewell to a colleague, while she was there to have fun, her friends knew one of her hubby group, 2 group of people were clicked and mixed well instantly, expect her hubby was silent and passive for whole night.

Surprisingly, she got the call 2 days later, she doubted whether he called the right person as her friends were more outstanding and prettier than her, but her hubby managed to point out and describe how she looks like and her attire 2 days ago, so she was convinced that he was looking for her.

They started to go out as friend, but the progress were poor due to the guy had poor communication skills, you asked A, he answered A. I can imagine how boring and desperate my colleague was towards his attitude. Her friends encouraged her to leave the relationship as she couldn't stand with him anymore, and she thought to give that guy a lesson before they ended the dating games.

Her hubby dated her to Haggen Dazz for desserts, so she arranged her friends to follow them in another car, suppose she and her friends to order expensive stuff, after finished expensive desserts, she followed her friends back and left that guy with long bills. But the incident didn't happen as it suppose to be, end up she left the friends and follow her hubby away. That's the part, make us laughed like hell...

She changed her mind totally, as her hubby was generous to her friends despite they ordered 2 or 3 scope of Haggen Dazz with toppings, that easily cost about RM30 a head and she fell in love the way he enjoyed his ice-cream as he ate like a child and kept inviting her to share his ice cream with joys.

Sometimes, when a relationship seems impossible to develop further, the couple should not give up as they yet to meet the triggering point to touch their hearts, like in my colleague case, a date in Haggen Dazz changed her decision, so Cupid will be there when your heart is triggered.

Unexpected Guest

2009-03-23T22:26:00.000+08:00

I was in KL for 2 days, I sms my friends to ask whether they want to meet for dinner. He asked whether I am interested to join in his web friends gathering, I didnt ask for detail and in my perception and assumption that the gathering will be attended by 5 or 6 person, end up my assumption is out, 13 of 18 turned up for the gathering. What a big gang!

Each of them introduced themselves with nick and real name, when came to my turn, I just waived hand and pass the turn, as I was the unexpected guest for this gathering, this was their first time to meet up and my friend just met up with 3 of them before. They joined the web chat site named PJ net as most of them are from PJ area, I am not sure if Penangite also has such virtual community, Penang net is not for chatting purposes, but to promote Penang tourism and business opportunities.

I recalled my first time and also last time to meet with a net friend was 5 years ago when I studied in KL TARC. I were quite cautious when we decided to meet up unveiled the cover as I didn't know whether I will be conned, I went to fetch her and we headed to Sentul, the famous Malay tree house restaurant for nasi lemak.

We had the nice chats and since that we visited each others for a few times. I went to her hometown in Parit Buntar and she came to Penang to join me for movies. When she decided to go KL for her career development, we started to lose contact and now is more alike strangers.

Stay in Hotel

2009-03-22T18:20:00.001+08:00

Somehow everyone heard of the rumors or have experiences of haunted incident in hotels, and there are rooms in every hotel have spirits to live in. So, the best practise when you check in the room is to knock the door first, then open the door and stand aside, after that you may enter the room.

Last 2 weeks, we went visit 3 hotels in Georgetown as we are going to organise a convention in August for about 100 person. After discuss the quotation and some detail, we requested to have a look on the room as those participant have higher expectation of foods and accommodation, thus we want to ensure the place is up to standard, at the same time the price need to be reasonable.

Interestingly, we found that 3 hotels' contact person had the same practise when they brought us to visit the rooms, they knocked the door or rang the door bell before open the door. We sure that those rooms we visited were empty as the keys provided by the counter on the spot. At that time, I want to throw the question, but somehow it stuck at my throat, curiosity can kill the cat.

So, 2 days ago when I checked in the room in Eastin Hotel, PJ, I did the same as well, knocked the door before open it. But, I still have puzzles in my mind and I will solve it for next visit to hotel to confirm the booking.

My Broadband Experiences

2009-03-21T17:50:00.003+08:00

All while I do not mind what my broadband speed is, of course the faster the better, sometimes it is not up to par, as long as it do not stop me to access to my email and blog, I really do not mind.

But, thing has changed beginning in Mar, as now I need to do extensive info search for my study, assignment and exam, thus I need to rely on it heavily and I do not want to see my future investment all gone into drain because of the Internet connection speeds.

I used to use Maxis wireless broadband, its connectivity is ok, but they make the thing sucked by offering the bulky modem, if to ask for USB pendrive size modem, I need to pay RM138 per month which I do not want to.

Now, I got the subscription from Celcom which I paid RM299 for the USB modem, and RM9o per month for the service with 2 years contract. But their customer service person is the most unprofessional and rude which I ever encountered. The service has interruption for the past 2 weeks, I called in to check, they admitted network problem but need 1o days to fix it. So, I requested they should review my bill, since I pay 90 per month and now they have service interruptions for 1/3 month. Whether this is valid request or not, they should give me feedback, end up no answer given by hang up the call straightly, that make me felt like an idiot.

In the past 2 weeks, suppose I have many interesting story to put on blog but the connection problem pissed me off.

Finally, Digi provided the wireless broadband service, the package is worth to have a look, I hope U mobile can come to Penang sooner as well.

Car Pool

2009-03-07T00:18:00.003+08:00

By end of March, I will be in KL again for classes, suppose I can arrange car pool among penangites to go KL, partly to save cost and have companions, maybe can form a study group if necessary.

10 person enrolled for MSc class this intake, 6 from KL and 4 from Penang, 3 penangites are from same company, 2 is sponsored by the company for the course while another is self funded for study like me. I asked them whether wanna car pool and they proposed me to drive, I have no concern about this, but the problem is have to follow their time which they wanna depart on Thursday after work at about 4-5pm. Of course at their standpoint, it is for safety reason as they may not comfortable with night journey.

While Thursday and Friday are the busiest day for me, as I need to massage data get freshly from production and update in system, then push suppliers to updates supply plan. Thus, I estimated I can leave workplace only by 7 or 8pm after rushing to complete the reports. But, they rejected.

Since they are majority, thus I make my own arrangement, pay some premium for comfortable and short hours trip. Since the schedule is fixed, I may as well book for the flight for next 3 trips, save some money for early birdie.

Tolerance and compromising is very important to nurture the new friendship, while they shown strong control and stand firm with their own rules at the beginning, I think I am hardly to join them for any activities other than meet them for study in KL.

Waiting Times in Subang Airport

2009-02-22T19:11:00.002+08:00

MBA induction was finished earlier than scheduled, I met with new friends of Chinese, Malay, Indian and a Indonesion doesn't look like typical Indonesion, but likely local Malay.

At 4pm, the program is completed, thus we had teas at a mamak shop. The center is located at Phileo Damansara, an office area which are busy and crowded on weekdays, but peace and silent during weekend especially on Sunday. They told me, the parking fees on Saturday is RM19 while on Sunday is just RM3.

A new friend offered me a ride to Subang Airport which I can't resist as it cost me RM26 for cab from airport to Phileo Damansara, the ride could have save me RM10 at least. On the way, he shared a lot of his experiences, especially as SAP consultant. At 24, he has had his mind clear to master a skill for living, thus he mastered SAP, and works as consultant since that, this job earned him the respects, stable income and opportunity to travel.

I asked him how long he can last for if he is stop working now? He answered for 5 years.

So, at this moment, I am thinking what kind of skills I should master? I chose to study MBA because the exclusive membership with the professional associations that attracted me, to be outstanding than others in procurement line. I believe this course will earn me different exposure and change the way I think. I want to involve in more strategic roles for future career path, moving towards total supply chain than just stay in procurement line.

The flight has arrived at last, is time to pack up and wait for boarding.

Married in, Married Out

2009-02-17T22:23:00.002+08:00

I seldom watch drama, because the story is slow and long, I am impatient and lazy to follow the story line, often miss the peak of the drama, till the end I do not know what is the story about.

Today, I discovered a interesting topic from the drama " Mother's Home", which is now on air every weekday 8.30pm at Astro 333 Hua Hi Channel.

The topic is about, a guy is finally got blessing from the lady's rich parents to allow him to marry her, but with conditions that the guy must stay in with them and his first child must follow their family name.

To marry a rich girl and have lesser efforts to be succeed is every man's dream, even sometimes I make daydream of it too, but give and take, we get material satisfactions and may need to lose our dignity as we are married into the family and they may have greater control on us.

Besides, a guy needs to be mentally strong as he needs to face all the rumors and grieves spread around, like in this story, the lady's brother against that guy and commented that guy eat "soft rice", mean that gain benefits from lady. Often, men are potraited to be tough and independent, they should give instead of take from ladies. In this case, the lady does not mind to give, as she loves him a lot.

So, men needs to think twice to marry in or marry out, cause the impact will be there forever.

Wedding at Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T01:25:00.002+08:00

For those planned the wedding or registration on Valentines Day, I wonder if they wanna save the hassle to remember the number of special days? Valentine's Day = Wedding Anniversary.. :)

I had plans for the romantic Saturday, but because of a message in the early morning, I reshuffled my plans, some forgetten and some were unplanned to be carried out.

Original plan: Play Badmintion -> Send the recycle items to Sima handicapped -> Meet with friend for discussion -> complete the Reports

Reshuffle Plan:
Play Badminton (forgotten) -> attended friend marriage registration ceremony at CHE HOON KHOR MORAL UPLIFTING SOCIETY, PENANG , met with my neighbour at the same place unexpectedly, end up I took photo with both couples. Met with my colleague whom is wife to my ex school mate that came to visit them, what a small world. -> Send the recycle items to Sima handicapped -> Meet with friend for discussion (forgotten) -> met with friend to pass down some work.

At the era we keep emphasizing equality between gender, my fellow neighbour feared of 30 years is too old for a lady, but OK for man as the couple are same age, so they want to settle it fast within this year. In fact, this is common thought among girls.

Free Software online

2009-02-13T22:59:00.003+08:00

About a year ago, I was attracted with an online offer for free software, just need to pay for the freight cost and they send you the free CD. I chose for 3 CD titles but they sent me additional 2. 3 was for free, but they charge for that extra 2 CD if not returned. I was unaware with this T&R and got billed USD21.57 for this software continuity program.

Subsequently, they continue to send me the CD and end up I need to call them in US to stop the subscription, luckily I had the call card to use as I in charged for the company US production operation at that time and call US supplier frequently and nobody awared of this. :P

I sent back the CDs that cost me RM15. Since that I never trust any freebies offer online, as there is no free lunch. Suppose this is end of the story, but today when I got home, I was surprise with a letter from US Federal Trade Commission (FTC), the consumer protection agency has filed lawsuit to the company for the cheat, and the company Think All Publishing was ordered to refund the money to the consumers/ victims. Thus, I received a cheque for the reimbursement.

Problem is the cheque is issued to Warren Loo, instead of my full name, I am not sure if I can bank in this cheque, seems like this is a piece of cake displayed at Coffee Bean bar counter, I can see it but have no chance to taste it before I pay for it!

If the same case happened in Malaysia, I am not sure whether I can get refund as the consumer right is seldom being exercised correctly.

A scene at Petrol Station

2009-02-08T13:24:00.002+08:00

About an hour ago, I was at petrol station to feed my car empty stomach. As usual, I used credit card to do the transaction.

A motorcyclist came nearby to approach me to request my helps by giving him some amount of money to refill the tank, he told me pithily he lost his wallet, and do not want to trouble his aging dad whom about 70+ came from Balik Pulau to rescue him. Cautiously, I did not want to take out wallet to give him money, and told him I do not have small change.

This is not the excuse, but the fact that I do not have small change at that time. Alternately, I can offer him to fill the petrol before I hanged up the nozzle, but, I did not because I do not trust him at the moment.

After me, he keep approaching 2 of others but fail to get. After left the petrol station, I was in dilemma, what if his story is true one? if he tried to cheat me, the most I lost RM4. However, I didn't turn back at last.

We are now hard to differentiate who is really need help and who is not, your mercy are often being manipulated, so we need our wisdom and experience to judge before decide to help.

Continue Study

2009-01-29T19:44:00.000+08:00

After working for 4 years, I think is time to back to school again. I hope to be full time student, but this is impossible unless I have strong family support. Since I wanted to further study to enhance my knowledge with my current job/industry, thus I need to continue to work to get some materials.

1 and the half year is long time and in between I may need to forgo a lot of things, but if I do not start it now, it will never have the ending. I have checked with several sources to study MBA in Supply Chain Management, to my amaze that work in supply chain is also kind of professional. I used to think that those people like accountant has registered body ACCA or CPA, Company Secretary has ICSA are professionals. Supply Chain has CIPS (The Chartered Institute of Purchasing and Supply) as well. Thus, I changed my mind now, to stay on in supply chain is also a professional job.

Suddenly, I feel my career path is brighter than ever.

First day at work after CNY

2009-01-28T19:03:00.003+08:00

Today is first day at work after CNY, but I was still in holiday moods. 200+ emails pending in my inbox but none of it require action item.

Just 10% colleagues turned up for works and most of them left earlier. At 4pm, all the cubicle were emptied. I spent my times by playing online games, read newspapers and articles, even fictions.

I spent a longer breakfast hours than usual and even drove back to home for lunch. So, today is the most relax working day I ever have. But, I hope that this will not prolong, or else I will get big envelope.

Therapy

2009-01-26T17:27:00.003+08:00

I told my friend that I am undergoing a 21 days therapy begin from today, she looks shock and wonder what happen to me, from her look, I knew she defined therapy is the treatment of disease or disorders. or should I use the other terms like 21days self improvement journey or 21 days challenges, that give positive impression? I use therapy is because my heart is sicked and I like to cure it.

Everyone in everyday like to complain, no matter what condition they are. Complaint has became a habit and nobody realise. When someone start to complain in a group conversation, everyone will follow, and worse still, they like to compete whom has the worst experiences ever, what is the rewards at last? Nothing.

I came across about this campaign recently through a book " A Complaint Free World". I do not know whether this campaign is rooted in Malaysia, but I like the concept. I ordered the purpose bracelet and a T-shirt from them http://www.acomplaintfreeworld.org/

The bracelet is served as reminder to yourself, every time you complain about something, remind yourself to swap the bracelet from one hand to the other. If you can keep record for not swapping the bracelet for 21days, mean that you have cured yourself from complaining. But every time when you swap, mean that the days accumulated will be reset again. I read from the book, the some of them took 11 months to complete the challenges, 21 days complaint free.

I wear the bracelet just as reminder to myself, to complain less per day by day, slowly it will become habit for no complains. 21 days challenge? it will always ongoing with no time limit set.

Lousy Plumber

2009-01-24T17:33:00.000+08:00

I have a friend whom is straight forward type, whatever he dislike, he will voice out without consider your feeling. At the very begining, I dislike his type and have a lot of negative comments about him.

As times flied, I knew him better, just realised that he is not bad, instead he has other good point that he is quite responsible and helpful, and now his words are not hurt to hear anymore. I am looking into his good points rather that his words. Respect him as he is and accept the ways he talks, sometimes we may need someone to help and we never know when will it happen. So, never act and talk proudly that you do not need anyone helps.

Few days ago, I tried to replace the water hose in my house, it suppose to be a easy job and turn out to be a challenging one, I broke the water hose and the gear stuck inside the T-joint. Now its has became a major operation to change the T-joint as well. I stuck there for a while and decided to give this friend a call to ask for his helps as he is the electrician. Suppose water and electric is 2 different field and I should look for a plumber instead of him.

When he got my call, he agreed to come to have a look despite he has no ideas whether he can help. At last, he is here to help with something when I was out of idea, he helped to reinstall the water hose so that I can continue to use tempoparily till after CNY when the plumbers are back to work. If I insist to ask for plumber service while they have off for CNY holidays, I may need to pay extra.

Once again, I proven my view points are right: Respect people as the way they are, sometimes we may need someone to help and we never know when will it happen.

Man Looks

2009-01-23T16:43:00.001+08:00

I read about this interesting survey a few days ago on "The Sun", 39% Malaysian women think that best looking men can be found in Malaysia, 1% in UK, 5% in Italy, USA, India, South Korea, 2% in Japan, others 14% and none 4%, don't know or declined to answer 21%. Interestingly that for the first time, Malaysian point of views think that Malaysian men is outstanding of others.

for the absolute criteria before a man cam be described as good looking, Malaysian women opted 23% carries himself with confidence, 26% good hygiene, fresh breath, 16% dresses well, 11% works out/look fit, tough, 7% macho or manly look, 7% clear skin and lastly 3% with a great smile.

I have the criteria of self confidence, good hygiene and great smiles, added up equal to 52%, that's mean I have the passing marks to be a good looking guy :P

Day dreaming

2009-01-21T23:31:00.002+08:00

As typical Aquarius, I like to dream, dream of imagination to balance my life. What I could not get in real life, I got it in dream. This is power of day dreaming that push me going on.

I have various of interest and dreams that like to achieve, for instant, photography, in 2009, i bought the DSLR and signed up for photography class, then my dream start to realise.

Today, I make another breakthrough, setup a chinese kungfu tea station in my home, finally I spent some a few hundreds to buy the complete set of tea equipment to fully enjoy the joy of chinese kungfu tea...

I am not master in anything, just to extend my interests and do whatever I wanted to do for long times. So, think more and dream more, it will be realised and just a matter of time.

Inspired by movie

2009-01-14T21:42:00.003+08:00

What is love?
Feel miserable to be happy.
-Inspired by movie "Hicth"

Memory Lane

2009-01-04T17:37:00.003+08:00

There is a franchise gift shop named " Memory Lane", I guess because they wanted their customers have sweet and great memories from all the gift they got from the shop. But, all in my memory is the gifts from the shop are quite expensive :P.

Today, instead to drive 10 minutes to the cellphone shop to get a replacement charger, i chose to walk for 1 and half hours return trip. I walked through the memory lane and unfreeze my memory from 7-12 years old when I was in primary school.

I have chance to look closer again to the school I spent my childhood good times at, we played hide and seek, gun wars, flied kites, played congkak, bicycle race and ... the school compound is still remained, but has been occupied with more buildings, cement floor, no more green field and trees has been chopped. I looked around the place with good memories flowed in my mind, I stood there for quite sometimes and smiles hanged on my face, if a stranger beside me, must get shocked cause I just smiled on my own out of nothing.

A short distance but steep road which I used to complain and curse a lot when I walked back from school to my old house, now I feel so different when I set my foot print on it again, feel so relax, maybe the cloudy weather provide good shade from hot sun.

I left home at 4pm sharp, and reached home at 5.30pm. Half an hour later, the rain start to fall.

In fact, I should walk more to explore my surrounding, partly for exercise, partly to know more about the place I stay for years.

Lessons for Interest

2008-12-30T21:39:00.008+08:00

I like to take photos, this is part of my interest and it getting stronger since I bought my first camera in 2003, Minolta Z1, a prosumer camera with some SLR functions, quite handy to use, it followed me travelled to many places in Europe continent, Hong Kong, China Mainland and Taiwan.

I have no idea Minolta has quit camera business since March 2006 and sold the business to Sony, till recently I was looking for a upgraded camera after Minolta Z1, of

course I was looking for Minolta camera first due to pleasure experiences to use Z1 for 5 years, the camera is still in good condition, just the battery cap spoiled a bit, I sent it to Sony Customer Service to repair, it cost me about RM70.

In fact, I took a few pictures which I personally think is the best shot, this couple known each other when we were in UK for study and they married in mid Jun 08, the picture is quite presentable seems like a couple was walking relax around York city.

Actually, I wanted to attend a photography course for long times, I do not expect to be a professional photographer, at least to learn the basic photographic skill, but a photography course can easily cost you a few hundreds to thousands, depend on the level you are exploring to. Since I do not plan to earn living with it,thus I explore for free course or at least with minimal cost, finally I got it and I signed up for the course that will start in early Jan 09.

If you ask me what is my target or resolution for 2009? I think is to complete the photography course and master the photographic skills.

X'mas 2008

2008-12-25T02:06:00.002+08:00

2am of Xmas 2008,
just back from the movie,
still fancy about Xmas countdown?
Get drunk with clubbing?
Answer certainly negative.

Yes man...
Yes, open to the opportunity,
Yes, open to the challenges,
Yes to everything blindly?
Follow your heart,
we must think positively
with eyes open.

She work in the corporate,
He was running a cafe,
everyday, after work, she helps as cashier.
indirectly, she is "tau keh so"
Months ago,
the cafe owner wanna raise the rent,
double up!
He gave up.
wanna find a sales job.
Now, better take a rest.

2oo8, a fruitful year...
work, achieved a new millage...
Personal Life, rooms for improvement
Social Life, brilliant as always
Financial, more stable.

好马. 好草

2008-12-19T19:20:00.002+08:00

人道：
好马不吃回头草；好草不怕回头吃。

结果:

好马正待吃好草；好草不给好马吃！

人道：
有草堪吃直须吃莫待无草空肚子。
我道：
天涯何处无芳草，何必单守回头草?

Worst Service at Morning 6am

2008-12-12T17:32:00.007+08:00

I woke up early today as usual, 4am. After finished setup and delivery goods to all customer, I was extreme hungry. 6 o'clock in the morning, while kopitiam(s) is yet to ready for business. So, I chose to have KFC breakfast as I never try before since they offered this service.

In term of choices, is much lesser than Mcdonalds breakfasts, the service was poor as well. Just look at tea cup here, I ordered for Chicken Sausage combo set that serve with coffee, tea or orange juice. I chose tea, what they prepare was put the tea bag in the cup and add on hot water, I saw hot water just filled 80% of the cup, thus I requested to fill it up. The lady at the counter looked at me with strange eyesight and told me "this is the portion we served". Since my Chicken Sausage combo was yet to serve, I did not want to argue more as I concern they add extra " ho liao" to my food.

The so called waiting time 8 minutes was actually more than that, I paid RM8.60 for the food and just requested to fill up the cup with hot water, only hot water, but they refused! The tea is pure Ceylon tea as they did not provide sugar and cream powder packs as well.

I am very disappointed with their service and I think this is my first and last time to have breakfast at KFC as I do not think I deserved poor standard of service.

Tau Fu Prince. Market. Hell

2008-12-11T19:09:00.002+08:00

"Tau Fu" or bean curd, this is my family business which we have operated for 18 years. We dont run the Tau Fu manufacturing business, but selling Tau Fu, Mee and etc in the market.

I am not from rich family, but the way I spend is like I am quite wealthy, that's the reason they gave me a nick " Tau Fu Prince". What my friends see are the way I spent to pamper myself, but they never see how much effort we put in to operate the stall, market business is never a pleasure environment, cause the customers are quite troublesome and demanding sometimes, most of the times are the competitors have price wars.

Tau Fu prince never intend to take this business to earn living for long times, but due to this is family business, so I still need to help from times to times. Like for the past 1 week, I had to wake up at 4am in the morning, went to market to setup the stall and delivered the goods to customers.

At 7.30am, I rushed back to home to take a quick shower, then go to work straight. As you know, new company, new working environment, we need to put in extra efforts and times to blend in with colleagues, and the jobs are still in learning curve which need to learn and take up as soon as possible. Everything need extra attentions, customers you support have high visibility in your jobs, you cant hide, you cant drag, you cant skip the responsibility... they know what you are doing and they even know where to escalate if something goes wrong. If you are a high performer, then this is a good place for you to show your capability, if you under performed, you will feel like pressure cooker and could be in the hell.

This is my 4th week in the company and start on board, fortunately I have out of supply issue! My customers start to escalate me and my manager go after me for updates, I feel glad that they escalate me as I can have instant actions and push myself to work on it urgently, this will help me to pick up the jobs earlier and plan for next stage of career path. Routine operations are never what I wanted for, I want different experience and explosure.

Tired after work for whole day market and in office, I am now rewarding myself with a good meal in a newly open cafe, same concept like Old Town and Red Island, the name is Apex located in Queensbay area here, environment wise is ok, food just taste normal. I ordered healthy food " Stewed Minced Chicken with Brown Rice" + "Apex Mix Fruit Juice" which they put the icon as "Chef Recommended" and I think their Chef is not really good in recommendation, the rice is too dry, the minced chicken is too oily, and the drink is just so so... up to you whether want to come here to try.

7.40pm, is time to go home after complete this blog. Tired...tired...sleepy.

It's time to change

2008-11-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

I put a shout out in my Friendster profile " After 3 years, its time to change...", actually is more than 3 years, to be exact was 3 years and 8 months with the ex-company. I never think to leave before, but after read some article (can refer to my another blog http://warrenloo.blog.friendster.com/2008/07/), I changed my mind, job is just a job and never afraid to change the job. That inspired me to be more aggressive to look for jobs, as well as do some visualisation, I want to achieve something before I leave. At last, after a month I got my promotion, I tendered the resignation as well as I managed to find a better offer.

After 3 years and 8 months, I came to a bottleneck which I couldn't breakthrough, and the working environment is getting polluted with hates, jealousy, blackmail, back stabbed, favouritism, calculative and grieves, i think is time to move on. I know every company may have situations listed, but for what i have gone through, enough is enough. I feel unbalance for long times since early of the year. That's the reason, I felt sick to continue work in such environment, subsequently, I lost the motivation at all, nothing to push me and recharge my spirit. So, I tendered letter even I got promotion. Other may choose to stay to prevent being commented no appreciation to the boss good will to fight for your promotion.

What I think if this is the reason I stay on, I will be more painful. At last, I ventured into new company since I hardly find the internal relocation after a several trials. In new company, you get a better pay, new fresh start, new group of colleagues and you absolutely have nothing to lose.

Others are still calculating how much contractual bonus and performance bonus they may lose if they change job at the wrong timing. Often, this is timing issue as good job will never wait for you. If you just know how to calculate how much you lost now without realise how much you will gain in future, you will never find the job you wanted for.

So, when I think its time to change, everything changed for me smoothly. I think a part of the visualization, my karma played important roles. Do good, you gained good. So, be good always.

Call at the midnight...

2008-11-29T02:00:00.003+08:00

I received a call in the midnight,
someone informed me,
she will be away for a few days,
afraid that I can not keep in touch with her,
and waiting for her.

I received an online message in the midnight,
someone is missing in action for sometimes,
a family in elephant kingdom is missing her,
they requested me to pass the message,
at last she called them,
and the worries were relieved.

I received an email in the midnight,
someone is pressured and overstressed with works,
she asked me how should she proceed?
as she is the earliest in office, latest to leave,
200% overload!
and the manager bagged her to stay on,
I replied, its your choice.

I am now sitting in front of PC in the midnight,
while waiting the phone to ring,
" hello...I am so lonely...."
I let my minds fly wild,
let the sleepy worm bite me.

Before, prior to this,
I was almost drunk and looked for my friend helps,
keep me awake to drive from Tambun to Penang,
Calsberg + Guinness + Red Wine + XO and seafood
I over my limit...luckily no police roadblock
or now I am in lockup rather than in front of PC.

The way we eat

2008-11-23T17:27:00.002+08:00

A usual Saturday morning, but I got some unusual info from the radio and this helped me to realise that the way we eat can impact the environment and pollute it as well.

Years ago, when we were in poor condition, we just afford to have foods available locally. Years later, economy was blooming, everyone had better income and start to look for better lifestyle, foods are no longer basic essential needs. People start to look into the food as art rather than something you need for living.

The taste, display, sources of the material and the availability are all the consumer looking for and classified as fine dining! Globalisation is not only apply in big business, food industry is moving towards globalisation! Not kidding. Today we have fresh steak from Australia, New Zealand,Japan US...Lobsters from freezing Alaska, to ensure the freshness of the foods, all need to ship by Air.

Last time, we may have Air shipment once a week, now the demand is increasing, so the shipment is a few times in a week, the more flights took place will create more impact to the environment, more CO2 created to the air.

The moment the enjoy the fine dining, think of the impact you create to the environment as well, the way we eat, indirectly contribute to global warming.

3 years 8 months...

2008-11-15T17:31:00.002+08:00

3 years and 8 months...a time period long enough to change a person to emerge from 0 to a senior. Its not an easy decision to make to move on if I do not feel unbalance psychologically, things changed from simple to complicated, the quality of works dropped and selfishness increased dramatically, looking at this sad situation. I think I have enough to see, hear and say. Thus, I venture into a new company now.

I know the same situation will happen everywhere, office politic will never stop, at least the new environment and the dynamic effort to learn new jobs will diverse my attention, to switch my focus more on things I have to go on to pick up my job as fast as possible.

A fish in a pond, if will stay on in that pond for long time, the fish will never grow as the pond cannot provide the enough resources, but it still need the pond to provide a safe environment to grow. When times come, the fish should move to lake and ultimately is the sea...no matter is red sea or blue sea.

The pond has limited the fish growth as the resources is diverted to other like crabs, frogs and even the prawns, as they happy with what they have now, when the fish discovered the new resources, they will want to grab it and what they have are reluctant to give out, they feel comfortable inside the pond, as this place should be big enough for their survival.

If we do not let go something, we will never discover the pleasures that will soon to come, the whole new world that waiting us to discover and we shall never feel fear with unknown as this is what it's beautiful is. Crabs, frogs and the prawns can never feel the same as what the fish feel as their mobility is limited, while the fish is ready to explore the unknown world...

3 years and 8 months in current company should have equipped myself with certain level of knowledge and right working attitude, so is time to put myself into test for my performance!

Hush Puppies

2008-11-09T19:35:00.002+08:00

I have flat foot, mean that I cannot take any shoes as I wish. So, I have to be particular with shoes. I bought my first pair of Hush Puppies sander when I studied in KL in 2002, the sander is now still with me even after 6 years as it is still in good condition.

I had 6 pairs of Hush Puppies at once as my personal records, the shoes is not cheap, but the quality is definitely match with the price and the cheapest Hush Puppies cost you about RM150 at least, I willing to pay for it as the shoes is so comfortable to put on.

I am not writing this blog as advertisement to promote the brand, but sharing my user experience and painful memory when I wore the wrong shoes due to the nature of my foot, sometimes I wish to bare foot rather than wear the shoes caused me in great pain, the torturing pains shall make you remember forever if you still alive.

My sander had followed me travelled quite a number of places, Thailand, Taiwan, UK, Scotland, Hong Kong, China...and many places to go.

凌晨. 泰国. 机场

2008-10-29T12:00:00.003+08:00

十月廿九日, 凌晨一时,在泰国新国际机场敖夜,还有四个小时才能办登机手续,早上七时半的飞机,泰国人的好客被我们婉转拒绝了,与其在离开飞机场一个小时路程外的人家作客休息,软忱高卧;干脆苦命一点在飞机场过夜,千金易散,人债难还。

这一趟来泰国经历人生至少三个第一次,第一次来泰国;第一次跟安娣去做泰式按摩兼被性骚扰;第一次去见识泰国的性行业的昌盛,不过我没钱也没闲去多探索,兼被四个安娣挟持作保镖,什么都做不了。不知是她们给我作胆还是我给她们作胆?

第一次出席国际性会议,第一次觉得台北,曼谷及槟城有许多共同点,台北与曼谷同样便利商店超多,大街小巷或转角处会有一间,不过曼谷便利商店好像是没卖套套的,皆因人家的套套是送的,到处随手可得,同样的三个地方都方便找到吃的,个人感觉并不陌生。

值得一提的是这次会议的地点是一间刚营业个月的四星级海边酒店,客房装潢一流,浴室还有窗口可看到卧室,可能是情趣的需要,不过我们两个"麻甩佬"就很不习惯,这酒店还有三个游泳池,其中一个可以遥望海景,不过,我一个都没用到。

2点了,机场还是有不少人潮, 吵,杂,不安,担心行礼会跟人跑,所以又精神了,这里是个不夜城。突然肚子抗义了,搞革命,去星巴克要点餐饮,被告知已打烊,多坐两个多钟应该就好。

Count down To Thailand

2008-10-25T00:04:00.002+08:00

As usual, I am sleepless again before I travel.

This round is to Thailand, its my first time to step on Thailand, I used to sponsor a child in Thailand thru World Vision last year, but recently I stopped to sponsor as I see there is strong needs for helps for local child as well. With only capability to help 1, I chose to sponsor the local 1.

I heard a lot of Thailand, so this round I hope that I can witness it personally. At the same time, I may have chance to interact with delegates from other countries. This so called Befrienders Worldwide, but I really have no ideas how many countries' representatives will be there. But, I truly believe this trip will open my eyes widely.

We have about 27 delegates from Malaysia and 2 are from Penang. Until now, I yet to pack my luggage, just going to start after finish this blog.

At the moment, my blog is quite boring as I have too much planning yet to carry out, some can disclose and some cant be disclosed until the day I settle everything, that day will soon to come and now is not the right time to mention about it.

After spend so long of thinking, visualizing and waiting, I just want something nicer happen to myself no matter what happend. Just wait and see, maybe after when I back from Thailand, I will have better picture now...

19 Oct 2008

2008-10-19T22:05:00.002+08:00

Today, I lived my life to maximum, from morning 8.45am till 10pm at the night, 3 session for 3 different group of friends, but never to my family.

I became the bestman for my colleague, suppose we should meet at 8.15am, but I woke up late at 8.15am, luckily I took lesser time in bathroom, but when I rushed to meet my friends , it was 8.45am, we departed to Butterworth to get prepared at the bridrgroom house. Malaysian Chinese has been potraited as late comer especially in special occasion like these, my friend's relatives are typical Malaysian Chinese, they supposed to meet there at 9.30 and departed from Butterworth to Penang island to get the bride, end up we daparted at 10.30 as wasting time to wait for each other.

I was bestman cum driver, my friend told me earlier that the bridemaids are all single, if I am interested in anyone, just let him know and he will introduce to me, I noded my head and thanks for his goodwill. We reached the bride's house at 11am, as usual the bridemaids set the obstacles and challenges before bridgegroom can get the bride, it was my duty to remove all the obstacles, as I am sporting and able to play with them. After all. its all the history...

The wedding ceremony last till 2.30pm, I need to rush for another AGM in Penang Caring Complex, initially I expect there will be election and everyone need to vote for the chairman, end up the commitees has been well arranged through negotiations and everyone got their needs, quite dissapointed.

At 5pm, I rushed again to Juru Autocity to meet with my another gang of friends to have birthday dinner. The restaurant's environment is not bad but the service is just fair, especially the nepalese waiter was a little bit blur. Luckily, we met with a big boss and willing to buy the bill, so end up we do not need to pay a single cent.

Unfaithful

2008-10-09T00:42:00.004+08:00

2 days ago, on the way to work, I listened to Mix Fm DJs were discussing about unfaithful boyfriend or girlfriend, will you accept them back after he or she being unfaithful?

As expected, 3 callers called in and the answers were all the same. NO! NO! NO! because of the trusts were gone after being betrayed of unfaithful, you need great effort and longer time to build the trust again, and throughout that process, even he or she behave well, you may still feel suspicious again.

Deep in my heart, I have another voice and I really want to make a call, but due to time constraint, so I didn't make it at last. After all, I think I am willing to give another chance to her as long as there was no sexual relationship involved when she was being unfaithful.

I always unfaithful when my mind go wild, but I never put the thought to action, from social and physical point of view, I am still a good and responsible man. From spiritual point of view, I have great sins.

Forgive, you may have a happy couple again; unforgiven, you may have unhappy 2 person or 1 person unhappy while another one relief.

Think at what you really want and do the right decision at that moment, your decision can change your life chapter for the next few decades.

Season of Business

2008-10-04T22:41:00.003+08:00

Start of Oct, mean that season of business start again after the long break. I glance through my personal organiser, just found out that the entire Oct weekend are extreme busy with no time to rest except first week of Oct.

Next week, I will go KL for a national convention, I think my true intention is not to attend the meeting, but more towards to meet with some KL old friends that did not meet in person for long times. My short schedule will allow me to meet with only 1 or 2, so let's be wise to decide to meet which good friend. I think most probably I will meet with my 13 years friendship old pen pal, but have to depend on her whether can make it, this is not the first time, but what to do?

The following week will be my first time to be a best man to my friend, eventhough is a replacement, I shall do my best for him. This is once in a life time, I do not think he wants to see anything that may ruin his lifetime memories. Other colleague also have the serious plan, one has finally purchased the house, after much comparison and complain, finally he has to give up with his persistence for a thousand plus square feet condominium with price below RM200k in Penang Island selected areas.

The last week of Oct, I will be in Thailand to attend the International Befrienders Conference. This is my first time to be in Thailand, I never in Thailand before, many of my friends do not believe it, I think I must be given them wrong impressions that I am regular there for certain reasons, in fact I am not and I do not need to be there for that reason as well.

Oct is a also a season of changes, change for something better, change for something more challenges and change for different people I have to meet with. Let's see is the change can be worked?

Be There!

2008-09-29T17:18:00.002+08:00

Be there, yes, be there. This is what we lacked off nowadays, maybe you are physically there, but your heart is not. Your participantion in the event is invisible, your appearance make people sadder.

Why have to force yourself to stay at there when you are not ready to be there? No matter in works, in party, in the relationship or anywhere else... when a friend invited you to join them and you have promised but not ready to be there, sadly, you are not enjoying yourself, you may just jeoperdised the whole event.

When you are in the relationship, you are not there, but just because you afraid to be alone and need companion; no commitment given, no effort put in and you do not even have the mindset ready to go deeper, the other side gave 105% effort and you give only 75%. You have no intention to hurt anyone, in fact they got hurt deeper just becuase you are not there.

In the workplace, you are not there, everyday is just like walking zombie, you do the standard jobs and refuse to take in more resposibilities, never think of improvement, because you are not here. But every year end, you will expect for huge increment and good bonus, sadly you get it only in your dream. Everyday, your day is trapped with complains and dissatisfaction, make no progress. How to progress further while you refuse to step away from where you stand now?

Just ask yourself 3 Questions:
When is the most important time to us?
Who is the most important people to us?
What is the most important thing to us?

These are multi million dollars questions, and the answer is simple.

When is the most important time? NOW, yesterday has passed and could never be salvaged, future is still far to reach...how do you define your future? Now, is the most important and pleasure time.

Who is the most important people to us? Your parents? your partners? is the person in front of you, they are the most important person to you at that moment.

What is the most important thing to us? Be there! Just ask yourself, could you stand a person which have no intention to stay longer with you? Their appearance is just to fill up the space.

Now, be there with the person in front of you, you could feel the differences. You do not have to do much, just open your heart, be active listener, you could make people feel you are there for them. Be there!

Satisfaction

2008-09-26T17:17:00.002+08:00

Human greed are hardly to satisfy. We often want to get something more than enough: more foods, more money, more and more...despite the resources are limited. When there is scarcity, people will offer higher price to get it. Whoever can offer the highest price will get what they wanted for.

We always want to learn from the successful person. Seminars, Forums..whatever events that are talking about earning more money, wealthy lives, you will see the high registrations. Before you succeed, they earned your money successfully. A single formula cannot apply to everyone, as their needs and wants are different!

What you see and what you get are often a big gap. This realistic society tend to judge people success through how wealthy there are. Someone whom owned luxury car, properties and strong spending power is the benchmark for a successful person, and everyone hope to be like them. Actually everyone is a Richie rich, rich in heart. Sadly, no one recognised these greatest assets they ever have and tend to refuse to share the wealth with others. This is why you could feel that the society is cold...

Rich in lives but empty in hearts are the greatest sadness. The Chinese proverb " you owned thousand acres of paddy fields, but you need only 3 meals per day; you owned thousand of buildings, but you need only 6 feets place to sleep at night". which mean, human needs are basic.

Satisfaction must not only come from materials, help each other to achieve the goals are the greatness. No point to be so materialistic, after all your good friend are $$$ or people who have intention to kidnap your $$$. Show your smiles, talk to others nice and polite, manners...you can change the world.

Communication and Respect

2008-09-24T17:15:00.001+08:00

What is effective communication? you have to ensure your message have been conveyed to the target and the target is fully understand the message. Sometimes, you have to reconfirm again with target to ensure the message is clear and fully absorbed.

What is respect? From dictionary.com, you can easily find more 10 explanations of the word

1. a particular, detail, or point (usually prec. by in): to differ in some respect.
2. relation or reference: inquiries with respect to a route.
3. esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability: I have great respect for her judgment.
4. deference to a right, privilege, privileged position, or someone or something considered to have certain rights or privileges; proper acceptance or courtesy; acknowledgment: respect for a suspect's right to counsel; to show respect for the flag; respect for the elderly.
5. the condition of being esteemed or honored: to be held in respect.
6. respects, a formal expression or gesture of greeting, esteem, or friendship: Give my respects to your parents.
7. favor or partiality.
8. Archaic. a consideration. –verb (used with object)
9. to hold in esteem or honor: I cannot respect a cheat.
10. to show regard or consideration for: to respect someone's rights.

In this case, I am talking about to show regard or consideration for! This is respect. Chinese used to say " Respect is honoured by others, shame is self created consequence". So, I admitted when somebody talk to me, I do not really get the meaning as my assumption and the message that he tried to convey is quite different. But, this does not mean that he have the authority to overcome me and help me to do the decision that I never been informed before.

This was self created consequence and also with no sense of respect from somebody. Respect is essential and also courtesy to anyone no matter the senior or junior, before making the decision on one behalf, a short call or friendly reminder will not waste much of the times, especially for busy body. If you know how to handle the things nicely, I give 100% salute!

Now, not only the communication break down, in fact this is one of the wrong strategies that create more concerns and worries. Respect people first if you wanna gain respect in return, gained respect truely from heart and not of the position or status, then you are really somebody, or else you are just another piece of junk.

Set Free the Lives

2008-09-21T16:30:00.002+08:00

In Buddhism, one of the teachings is to treasure the lives, thus we shall not kill, shall rescue the lives and set free those living creatures.

I strongly agree with this teaching, but I disagree the ways some Buddhist practises to meet the purposes. Often during some Buddhism ceremony, one of the agenda is to set free the lives, thus they collect donations from the devotees and use the money to purchase the living creatures like birds, fishes, crabs or even crickets.

This world is pretty simple with supply and demand, if you have demands, definitely will have someone willing to supply to make the profit. Indirectly, those devotees are encouraging the hunters or the catchers to catch more birds or fishes to supply to meet their good deeds.

To my 2nd thought is this world is never balance, when someone gains, it mean that another one lose, you set free those living creature like crickets, you have the satisfactions as you think that you have done something good and it shall add credits to your karma! But, do you ever think of the ecology balances? Too much crickets appeared in the same place can cause ecology imbalance and brought impact to the plants, or even worst if the place near to fruits or vegetables farm, the farmer whom wanted to protect their farming products will kill those crickets with pesticide.

So, are you doing good karma or you put those crickets to be killed? Think about it.

If you good deeds to rescue and set free the lives is actually prolong their struggle to death, I think is good to donate the money for other charity purposes.

Greed, Desire & Stubborn

2008-09-19T22:44:00.003+08:00

Greed, Desire and Stubborn are 3 evil brothers. They often take advantages and control those people with weak mind powers.

Everyone know they should stay away from siblings, but sometimes, they just cant control themselves to get nearer with the siblings as they can offer the most attractive deal at the moment to meet their needs. Once you hooked with what they offered, you hardly to get away from them as they had controlled your minds and actions.

Greed and desire will encourage you to grab and ask for more, no matter whether it is legal or illegal as long as the needs are met. Stubborn will keep you away from people who want to wake you up, their advices are like needle poke into your ears, the more advices from them, you feel more pains in your ears and to reduce the pains the best way is to stay away from them.

So, this is how the greed, desire and stubborn team up to manipulate you! Today, I was controlled by them to do unfaithful things, in fact, they tried to manipulate me for long times, I was able to control myself until today, then I surrender myself and kiss their ass!

So, Greed, Desire and Stubborn, you are 3 assholes, I swore to myself that you will never have chance to come close to me again after today!

Test: Will you stay single or get married?

2008-09-14T15:15:00.001+08:00

Will you stay single or get married? *pics*
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Married

You will possibly get married. You might not realize it consciously but you are longing for someone to share your life with and people of this type attract each other naturally, all you need is a little patience.

Married

75%

Single by choice

55%

M. W. Kids

55%

Single by mistake

25%

Life is wonderful...

2008-09-09T18:12:00.003+08:00

Life is wonderful whereby many thing can and will happen unexpectedly. I have been planning to see audiologist for sometimes due to my tinnitus, but laziness and business keep me away to see the professional.

Last Sunday, I met my friend in Mahindhamma Buddhist temple to discuss some activities detail, during the discussion, an auntie came to approach us whether we want to do the hearing test as there were no patients anymore while the audiologist was still there for duty. As informed, she come to do social service here for every 3 months and co-incidentally that Sunday she was there. Without hesitate, I pulled my friend went to do the test as I have the needs and no people knew about this.

Came to my relief that, I have no hearing problem and the tinnitus may cause by other factors, the audiologist suggested a few techniques help to overcome tinnitus disturbance, overall, don't treat the tinnitus as enemy, slowly get use to it and to overcome it. Like to listen to many sounds everyday like sound of your breathing, moving fans, but we tend to ignore it by filtering it. So, the way is applicable to overcome it. I have been overused my hearing power since I was young, I put on earphone listen to radio for whole night while sleeping, now some of the cell died, it start to send signal to the brain and make the noise.

Why I consider the life is blessing and wonderful at the moment was because no one knew that I need to see audiologist, the meeting was arranged without realised there has the free hearing test on that particular day and time, even when I was there, I did not know it too as I did not put attention to that area, but end up someone came to approach us without knowing that I actually has the need.

I spent sometimes to think about this. So, is this just co-incident? or it actually has been arranged?

Wedding Dinner

2008-09-07T23:43:00.003+08:00

I have been invited to many wedding dinner, but tonight was a special wedding dinner. The bridegroom father was excited and high before the dinner start. He has baldness with some hairs above forehead, so he tied up the hair with red rubber band which looks like 3 years old kid, I thought that he has mental illness. But when I went to get refill for red wine, I heard he talked with his friends conciously.

He danced for the first half of dinner with 2 jugs of hard liquor, left hand with red wine while right hand with beer. After the bride and bridegroom gave toast to the guest, the dinner turned to be disco, not only the bridgeroom father danced, the couples and relatives joint in as well, like carnival more than a wedding dinner.

I guess our table had influences from them, we end up finished 4 bottles of red wine and beers. My friend concern that I was drunk, when I reached home, they called to find out whether I was ok. Tomorrow need to work, or else I will be drunk.

The video clip here let you to see the bridegroom father funny dancing...

Ex-Slave syndrome

2008-09-05T20:51:00.003+08:00

I read about an article from magazine, what drove to my attention was the discussion about "Ex-Slave syndrome". The definition for this syndrome is the couples broken up, but 1 party still be nice to another one, due to appreciation to the nice experiences and good times they have gone through or to compensate to other party due to guilty feeling.

I guess I have this syndrome, because I feel hard to reject if my ex request me to help on something, not because I still have feeling on them, but is according to the definition. That's why I tend to keep distance to my ex after broke up, not because I want to act cruel or not being gentleman, even after broken up, we can still be friend, but I obviously feel that it quite hard for me to take up again. Maybe, my self confidence level is not high as what I think in the relationship. But when come to other matters, yes, my confidence level is good.

I am serious about every relationship I have gone through, I pay 100% attention and commitment to it but when something went wrong, I may just pulled out. Am I too chicken? or I think it is not worth for me to waste my time on? Its good that we are blur in a relationship sometimes, too rational or too calculative, try to get break even from what you give and what you get is definitely a disaster. Personally, I wish and pray for my ex to have someone better to take care of her and have happier life, I pray for myself too...

Ex-Slave syndrome maybe ok when you still remain single after broke up, but how about when you have girlfriend or she has boyfriend? This is totally unacceptable, I do not think got any guy is so generous to see his girlfriend still hanging out with her ex alone or keep close contact with. So, its good to reduce this syndrome to minimum no matter I am single or in love.

Caffein Addiction

2008-09-03T20:30:00.002+08:00

I think I am addicted to caffeine now.

Since I was younger, I seldom take coffee or tea. Since I start to work in my current company, thing has changed as they provide coffee and tea only in break area and what I usually have is mixture of tea and coffee, both also have strong caffeine, from Monday to Friday in the past 3 and the half years.

So, it has became a habit that I must have drink that contained caffeine throughout my days, or else I will feel lack of something. Even today when I met my friends, I ordered a regular brewed coffee of the day in Coffee Beans. I think the caffeine level was exceptional high as after 5 hours taking the drink, I still feel the impact to me - alert for whole afternoon, mind blank and stomached. In fact, I dont like these feelings, but blame myself careless about the size of drink, regular size order turn out to be too much to me.

Green tea is part of my daily consumption as well, it has become a habit when I do or write that require to think, I will prefer to have something hot beside me, so that I can take bit by bit, not only to feed my stomach, clear my tounge basic taste, to stimulate some ideas to me too.

How to clear my caffeine impact now? Better do some reading now, read about " How to breakthough your career bottleneck?" I need to break through something, maybe this is the best time to think what I want? Money? Recognition? Self Esteem? or ....

Rapid Penang Treasure Hunt 2008

2008-08-31T15:52:00.007+08:00

Rapid Penang formed and start the bus services for Penangites in 2007, throughout a year never take the bus services. Some penangites comment highly while some complained, but I found some info to my Johor friend when she planned to spend time by bus tour from Penang International Airport to town during her trip from Langkawi back to Johore and had in transit time of 6 hours here, she commented the bus services are acceptable.

Yesterday, Rapid Penang celebrated the 1st year anniversary by organised the Rapid Penang Carnival in Gurney Plaza. Besides treasure hunt was participated by 25 teams mainly from corporate companies and we are the only team from NGO ,they had color competition, street dances and other fun fair activities. This was not usual treasure hunt, it was a bus treasure hunt that we took only Rapid Penang bus to go to those treasure hunt stations and we need to hand in the bus tickets as prove, those stations mainly scatter around Penang Georgetown World Heritage site.

Rapid Penang bus sent all the treasure hunt teams to Weld Quey, that's where we started the challenges. The first challenge, was we need to walk around Little India Street to look for clues and answers, then bought a piece mysore pak (Indian sweet make of milk, size like a chocolate bar and that cost us RM2.00, quite expensive!), then 2nd challenge we walked towards Chew Jetty to look for house addresses that have the displays as indicated, like the tiger holding the knife, should be sword instead!

Our 3rd challenge was to find the Way of Skin, in Malay word is "Lorong Kulit" to the house of legend P.Ramlee, followed by the detour to build the Pyramid by play cards in Rapid Penang head office there, its a hard work to build the pyramid as you have to hold breath and stop your shaking hands, finally my team mate Winnie saved the day.

After that, we got the clue to Prangin Mall area, our understanding was the open area that face pedestrian overhead walkway should near to former Super KOMTAR entrance, however when we were on bus, we met with another 2 teams and my team had been misled and diverted to another overhead walkway near Prangin Mall, that's how we started to have argument!

The 5th challenge was at Armenian Street, but the clue we got mentioned about " the citizen of Yerevan" which we did not know what was the hell of that, finally, we managed to figure out Armenian Street after through some argument! I never been to Khoo Kongsi before and that the first time I went into as the challenge require us to take pictures on certain objects from this Chinese clan house.

Final challenge was in Upper Penang Road that we were required to do some observations and some IQ test to get the answers, interestingly that I learned "The Garage" today is actually first car showroom in Penang owned by British brothers.

We fully enjoyed the treasure hunt challenges, our team members consists of 2 youth and 2 veterans, so we could not complete with those only youth team on speeds, but we played the game our ways and took our sweet times. Overall, the bus services are ok, I do not think we should complain too much as it really improved a lot. Throughout the game, we spent less than 15 minutes waiting time to get on the bus to next station.

We paid registration fee RM10 each, but in actual the registration fee they returned to us in

RM 10 small changes for us to take bus and we only spent RM5 each on the bus, finally we got RM5 back and a free T-shirt.

I am back...

2008-08-29T23:15:00.003+08:00

After disappeared from my routine blog time, I am back again, for 2-3 weeks away from blogging, actually i discovered at least 2 interesting topic that I have opinions and thoughts to share about. Maybe is lazy or busy with something else has occupied my times to blog.

I have been to Port Dickson to attend the meeting, this place i heard from long time and never been there. Really a nice place for seaside activities, but my tight schedules did not spare me more time to enjoy it. When I was in primary, when we read about picnic essays, Port Dickson was definitely a place to be, I felt strange as those people who wanted to go picnic will need to wake up in the early morning to prepare a lot stuff, including foods. Dad had to check and prepare the car; mum had to cook a lot of foods and all siblings were busy with this and that. So, they departed to Port Dickson, played for whole day and when they got home, the essays always like to end with Chinese proverb "thousands house with light on". I was never understand why when they picnic, it has to be whole day? Because in Penang, seaside is reachable with 30 minutes drive. When I grown up, I just realised those publisher in KL used the article wrote by KL folks, that's why a pleasure picnic has to turn into a huge project due to KL have no seaside and probably at that time Port Dickson is the nearest and most beautiful seaside to go.

Whole Malaysia crazies about our badminton player during Olympic time, unfortunately he just managed to get silver medal. This is the greatest event for every 4 years, even people like me that not so crazy about sport purposely changed my Astro subscription to add sport package just to watch the Olympic. My colleagues crazy about soccer, EPL, Italian Serie A...they can mention the players name like their old friend, to have more involvement during the match, they support their team through betting, some really make fortunate, they are kidding that betting is their full time job, and to work in office is part time now because betting seems more lucrative than their monthly pay cheque. Some more, they have internal tips from those "big boss" from times to times, so those betting income is definitely great. I never believe in betting will bring fortune, that's why I never have strong desire in gambling, due to this believe, it helps me a lot from to be greedy.

The working environment in office is seems unpleasant now as quite obvious that 4 of us have been left out from the circle newly formed. Since the 2 colleagues left within a months, the power blocks have been rearranged. Last time have 3 gangs, now 2 has merged into 1 and we are the block that has been set aside, but this do not really matter to us as we used to work independently and anyone of us can take up any task immediately with less supervision. Besides work, we do not really want to take care of other's businesses, unless their business affect ours. Office politic is definitely not part of us, we do not want to create and we do not want to involve also. Day in day out, just talk some joke make the day fun, that is our day in office.

My net friend sms me as she needed someone to talk with desperately due to working pressure in office, she has the suicide thought, in fact this is not the first time she had it, she dropped me 2 emails and I did not reply due to busy in the past 2-3 weeks. Thus, she sms me and just to check if I am available at that moment, unfortunately, I slept early that day as I lacked of sleep recently. The next day when I saw the sms, I replied instantly to her and luckily she is ok, we have contacts for 1 year plus. From the beginning, I knew she has suicide tendency, in fact I tried to link her with local counselling bodies but it does not work. She prepare to keep this to herself and a few others that she trust, I am one of that a few. I do not know the exact number. Whatever, she likes to share, I am ready to listen, if she does not want, I will not question further as I do not what to develop the dependency on me also. But, I start to look the trend now and I have to be extra careful.

My friend is US started her 5 weeks vacation trip since beginning of Aug, I requested her to send me a post card and I got it a few days ago, it was sent from Grand Canyon during her visit to there. I year and 7 months in US, this is 2nd time she sent me the post card, I guess she forgot when was the last time she sent me, that's why in her postcard she wrote as first time to send me the postcard. Her English used to be quite poor, but after the long period in US, she improved impressively. Awesome!

Another friend used like to comment herself age at 26, heart is at 6, body is at 66 and look like 16. I think I like to use her quote also. my age is 29, heart is at 19, body is at 65 and look like 36, as age increased, I start to feel the impact or consequences which I do not know how to take care of my body when I was younger. A few days ago I start to heard the strange sound in my ears, dont be worry, I dont schizophrenia but tinnitus due to i used to put earphone on and fall in sleep when I was younger and naive.

Time to bed... :-O

Pleasure or Pressure Working Environment?!

2008-08-07T00:17:00.001+08:00

My friend's company manager proposed penalty RM 2 for every mistakes they make. But only for certain mistakes, Attending meeting and briefing on time is included in the list. Means if the staff were late for the meeting or briefing, the staff have to pay RM 2. So, every morning, they have briefing in the office where all the staff will gather to discuss the work problems face by them.

One day morning, she was doing some work as requested by the head of department. She was in the midst of saving the documents afraid that it will lose if power cut and she need to re-type. Subsequently, she was late for 1 minute and the head of department show her the clock and the RM 2 sign. She somehow raise her voice and replied "I am saving the document or otherwise it will lost". Then, all the staff were already in the office ready for the briefing got a bit shock with my friends attitude towards the head of department.

In fact, all of staff objected to the RM 2 penalisation system because everyone makes mistakes. Who don't make mistakes? She was very angry with the head of department for always threat them with RM 2. But, the HOD is the person that makes the most mistakes, she is very selfish and only knows how to make use of her staff and backstabbed them in front of the manager. So, most of her subordinates dislike her, worse still, the manager prefer her very much and take her words seriously. Now, my friend worried that the HOD will revenge by deducting her points for calculating the incentive for this year after she raised her voice to HOD.

Besides, the manager is implementing colour tags for company staff to wear in 3 colours. Green = 50points means good work performance, Orange = 30 points means work performance is average and finally Red = 0 point means work performance is very bad. They have to wear the colour tag everyday while they are working. For green and orange, there is incentive given in monetary value. My friend feel the management are embarrassing them in this way by putting color on them, since the decision is final, means no argument. Somehow, she feel very tired and worried with all the points and penalties.

What I think is every company have their ways to motivate the staff to work hard and give outstanding performance, but my friend's company boss is seems to do it in the wrong way. To me, this is not the company but more like kindergarten or primary school. When you have good result in exam, you will be rewarded with sweets. On the other side, those with poor result will be asked to stand outside the class or on the chairs, just to show others that they were doing bad in exam and should get shames.

Without respect and trust to the staff accountability and responsibility, is this really a pleasure or pressure working environment?! I may want to follow up with my friend 3 months after, how many staff has left the company?

The Lonely Guy

2008-08-03T14:21:00.006+08:00

This is 1984 classic movie cast played by Steve Martin, one of my favourite comedians. The story is about A lonely guy in New York City dumped by his girl friend wonders the streets and discovers they are many others like him, they're all part of the society. He wrote a book based on his experiences as a lonely guy and the book become best seller...

In this movie, a typical lonely guy has been portrayed as someone whom treated plant as friend, used the dog trick to woo women (end up the dog was attention to women rather than him), use the fake sweat spray to pretend himself like sports and organised party at home for himself with all the cardboard displays than real friends. Sadly, one of the lonely guy also named Warren.

I like the scene when Steve Martin went into a restaurant and told the waiter that he was alone, suddenly the crowd stop, silent and look at him, got spotlight focus at him as well. End up, he pretended as food criticizer to cover the shame to have dinner alone. If being alone really can steal the limelight as in this movie, I really do not mind to try and I really love this non-sense scene make me laugh like hell...

Compare being a womaniser or lonely guy, I will prefer myself to be a lonely guy more than womaniser, I sometimes enjoy to be alone, good for self reflection. Furthermore, a lonely guy does not always lonely, he can get a lovely partner too and this is just a matter of times.

This movie had the happy ending, 2 lonely guys, Larry and Warren met with their partners at Mahanttan Bridge whereby most of the lonely guys chose to suicide.

Being lonely does not mean end of the world, when 1 door shut down, another door is opened...

Cutie Lady from Johore

2008-08-02T15:05:00.003+08:00

A friend from Johore, was invited to wedding dinner in Penang, so she took the opportunity to meet with friends in Penang during her visit. She likes pink color, dresses in pink and even the name also pink related. When you praised she is cute, she is extremely happy. In fact, she is not the first one I met whom has this tendency, a few of them too. Thus, I wonder is it ladies that not really pretty prefer to be praised as cute?

She got a few hosts during her stay and I was one of them. I am proud to show them to a place for breakfast in Campbell Street for toasted and steam bread whereby this place is quite isolated as it hide at the backstreet of 2 shop rows. Even people whom are staying surrounding for years did not even know the place existence. Thanks to my friend that brought me there once as one of her family regular favourite breakfast places.

The night before we met at Sunset Bristo in Batu Ferriggi, I met with a few of them that long lost contact since graduated from college and nothing much changed. When we talked about we has been in working lives for almost 4 years, everyone seems have the same feeling that times slipped away too fast. 7 of us, all still single, ladies are at 27 feel that they are quite old while guys at 27 or 29 are still the golden ages, this is general perception by ladies and social stigma which I disagreed.

After the breakfast, I showed them the way to Goddess of Mercy temple which established for more than 150 years and shared with them that often the wishes prayed to Goddess of Mercy are granted efficaciously, the ladies were excited and I guess most of them will wish for Mr Right.

I had to leave them as I had another appointment, meeting with friends are joys especially friend from far. Hope that my cutie friend will enjoy her stay in Penang.

Internet anxiety disorder

2008-07-26T00:38:00.004+08:00

According to wikipedia, Anxiety disorder is a blanket term covering several different forms of abnormal, pathological anxiety, fears, and phobias.

Anxiety and fear are ubiquitous emotions. The terms anxiety and fear have specific scientific meanings, but common usage has made them interchangeable. For example, a phobia is a kind of anxiety that is also defined in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, 4th edition (DSM-IV-TR) as a "persistent or irrational fear." Fear is defined as an emotional and physiological response to a recognized external threat. Anxiety is an unpleasant emotional state, the sources of which are less readily identified. It is frequently accompanied by physiological symptoms that may lead to fatigue or even exhaustion. Because fear of recognized threats causes similar unpleasant mental and physical changes, patients sometimes use the terms fear and anxiety interchangeably. Distinguishing among different anxiety disorders is important, since accurate diagnosis is more likely to result in effective treatment and a better prognosis. Surveys have shown as many as 30% of Americans may be affected by anxiety disorders.

(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anxiety_disorder)

Out of many anxiety disorders, I found myself to some extend have the "Internet anxiety disorder". It has been my habit to online every night, no matter how late I am home, whether to check mails, login Friendster or even write a blog. In my working place, we have access to Internet for whole day; by right after 8-10 hours access to Internet for works related and sometimes personal usage, we should not have the needs to Internet anymore. But, if I do not login again at night before sleep, I would feel something missing.

When the Internet connection is slow; disconnected or failed to connect at the beginning can cause you in anger, miserable, mental stress, down and violences (wanna throw away the modem); these are part of anxiety symptoms that could disrupt your daily activity. Many people misunderstand these disorders and think individuals should be able to overcome the symptoms by sheer willpower, yes, for "Internet anxiety disorder" I think you can overcome it with will power or change your habit, no treatment is needed.

Of course, I am still at controllable stage, no need to take any medicine or see any psychiatrist to cure the anxiety, but being a habit that need to access to Internet everyday, I think I will feel torture if have to away for few days without it. Witnessed a few successful online dates, I thought I can find my true love through this way too, unfortunately it never work! I am still socially active and prefer to do a lot of interacting through personal contact like phone calls, Internet is just a secondary backup when my phone bill boomed.

Developed habit to online at night and sacrificed sleep times and quality is very unhealthy, I think is time to develop a new habit or used the old trick -reading to kill the times before bed.

Visit to a friend new house.

2008-07-23T01:05:00.004+08:00

After work, I fetched her to her new house as she had appointment with the renovation guy,and I also wanted to have a look at her new house. The house is quite well maintained by the owner before hand after 9 years of occupancy.

Just wonder why she needs a house while she has been renting house for years, and why not her boyfriend should be the one to afford the house? She looked at me at kind of strange feeling and replied me " your thought is same like my mother..." I speechless. Often, we have perceptions that guy should own a house instead of girl before they settle down.

Like my another friend, he used to be "tak apa-apa" style, to buy a house and pay the monthly installment for years is like handcuffed himself, even though he has been in relationship for years and still not properly plan for his next stage. Until recently, while seeing most of the friends settled down, then he also wants to join the crowd. Problem is his girl friend refused unless he got a house first, then we started to see his efforts and initiatives to search for ideal house. Suppose his perfect plan is to get everything done within this year, but seems like it has to be postponed till next year.

When I sent her home, we touched on her relationship topics. Other may think that they are mismatched, no matter from academic qualification, income or age; her boyfriend is a year younger than her, secondary education while she is tertiary, income is 3.5 times lesser than hers. But, what her boyfriend won her heart is he is caring enough, like fetch her to and back from work, serve her home cook dinner every night. This friend is a workaholic, I think she is like many others, looking for someone who really love her and accept the way she is, the rest is not really a matter.

Horoscope for July 20, 2008

2008-07-20T22:19:00.003+08:00

Aquarius (Jan 20 - Feb 18)

The Bottom Line

Listen to a complaining friend without judgment. They will love your compassion.

In Detail

Just because someone you know is looking for answers in their life does not mean that you need to give them to them. You might know exactly what they need to do, but they might not agree. Be careful not to come off as preachy with them -- after all, would you like someone else telling you how to run your life? Just listen to their complaints and instead of telling them what you think they should do, ask them what they would like you to do. They will appreciate your compassionate approach.

It really surprise me with the horoscope above, its couldn't been kidding as I met with my friend on line, we didn't have a proper chat for long time. She greeted me first and we started the conversations. Most of the times, I just listen to her relationship problem and asked a few relevant questions to her problem. That's already make her day by relieving her emotions that kept in heart.

She thanked to me to be with her and be the good listener. This make my day too...

Prostate Specific Antigen

2008-07-19T17:36:00.003+08:00

I have been busy and have a terrible week, last 2 weeks our company had the health awareness week and they invited quite of number of health care providers came to the company to do some exhibitions and talks, one of them was the blood screening labs, they provided the blood screening package was quite cheap and the responds from the employees were good.

We got the test result by this week, overall I am quite healthy as I do not have high cholesterol, diabetes and high blood pressures etc. But, the only problem is I have the highest PSA (Prostate Specific Antigen) (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prostate_specific_antigen) which could cause prostate cancer. For normal young adult below 40 years old, the reading should below 2.5, while my one is 4.8.

The reading overall for age below 40, 0-2.5; below 50, 2.5-3.5; below 60, 3.5-4.5; above 70 4.5-6.0, according to this reading, I am 29 years old but having 70 year-old body, this is totally unacceptable. So, the next day, I on MC to go to private hospital to see urologist to take a check. When the urologist looked at my report, I think he might have a big laugh in his mind, I looked worry of cause. He asked me a question" Why you take PSA test?" " Men at your age are actually no need to take this test, the % for man below 40 to get prostate cancer is very low" His statement make me a dump!

Due to those blood test lab is commercialized now, they added a lot of unnecessary test in the package just to let the consumer felt worth for the money paid, and this caused the unnecessary worry to themselves, in fact I am not the only one, according to that doctor, he attended a few cases whom refer to him also due to the blood screening report. At last, he still do some routine check on me, then make the appointment again 4 months later to test the PSA again to ease my concerns. There are many reasons that cause PSA reading high, to my relief I have low risk of prostate cancer till I am age of 45, but great that this lesson created the awareness to me.

Today, I played badminton with friends, it has been long time I didn't exercise properly, subsequently I am having the body and muscle pains, and I lost my bracelet that I wore for more than 2 years, that bracelet is for blessing, I tried to look around the badminton court but failed to find it. I guess that bracelet helped me to block some unlucky things, that's why it gone now. Am I too superstitious?